Well, my friends, in about a half an hour I leave on another adventure into Adult-hood. I go down to take the comprehensive exams to see if I need GED classes or not. I'm beginning to get nervous, so I will DEFINATLY be playing MercyMe on the way down. Pray for me!! I dont know how things will go, I'm told the testing will take about 2 hours. I'll post when I get home to let you all know whats happening.
On another note, I've been studying Job recently, for the first time, and so far, it's nothing like I imagined it would be. I knew Job was tested by Satan to see just how much confidence he had in God, but there is so much more too it then that! I'll try to post some of my findings later on.
Need to run for now, I think I want a coffee before I leave. lol
Hugs!
3/16/05
3/15/05
Spring Is Coming!
I went downtown today, and it was warm enough to drive with my window open! There was sunshine everywhere! There are rivers running down the sides of the roads, pooling into deep puddles that spray high everytime a car runs through them. It even SMELLS like spring!!
There is hope!
There is hope!
Tuesday Morning, dawning bright...
Hello my loves!
It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood today! I was woken up by the sun hitting me smack in the face, my littlest sister barging in to give me a hug, and a wonderful mocha to start the day. Not the most poetic recap, but hey, it works!
Well, yesterday I went to see my new friend, the Physical Therapist. As it turns out, my knees are not causing the pain! My flat feet, and the lack of flexability in my hamstrings and other leg muscles are putting strain on my knee cap, causing it to hurt! Imagine that! But my prognosis is good, he says I'll live! Yippie!
On to other subjects, I was able to talk to one of my favorite people yesterday. No matter what kind of day I've had, he always seems to make it 100% better! (He's got this ESP thing going too that always blows me away...) :-) I'm trying to keep my feelings neutral about him, but it's getting hard. The closer it gets to his coming home, the harder it is. He's become a very special person in my life, without even trying!
Jordan, I'll see you at the airport in ten weeks!
Just a quick note to someone...My short Chipmunk friend, hang in there, keep up on the meds, and eat lots of lime jello!! Thinking about you and praying for you!
Today I'm headed downtown again to run some errands. Not sure if Mom is coming with me, but I hope she does! I love shopping with my Mom...except when we are both PMSing... this week though, we're all good!
Time to go finish my now cold breakfast and make another mocha.
Hugs to all!
It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood today! I was woken up by the sun hitting me smack in the face, my littlest sister barging in to give me a hug, and a wonderful mocha to start the day. Not the most poetic recap, but hey, it works!
Well, yesterday I went to see my new friend, the Physical Therapist. As it turns out, my knees are not causing the pain! My flat feet, and the lack of flexability in my hamstrings and other leg muscles are putting strain on my knee cap, causing it to hurt! Imagine that! But my prognosis is good, he says I'll live! Yippie!
On to other subjects, I was able to talk to one of my favorite people yesterday. No matter what kind of day I've had, he always seems to make it 100% better! (He's got this ESP thing going too that always blows me away...) :-) I'm trying to keep my feelings neutral about him, but it's getting hard. The closer it gets to his coming home, the harder it is. He's become a very special person in my life, without even trying!
Jordan, I'll see you at the airport in ten weeks!
Just a quick note to someone...My short Chipmunk friend, hang in there, keep up on the meds, and eat lots of lime jello!! Thinking about you and praying for you!
Today I'm headed downtown again to run some errands. Not sure if Mom is coming with me, but I hope she does! I love shopping with my Mom...except when we are both PMSing... this week though, we're all good!
Time to go finish my now cold breakfast and make another mocha.
Hugs to all!
3/14/05
Home!
Well, Ok, so I got home last night... I'm still home!
I had a totally awesome weekend in Maine, with the exception of the new snow. But even that wasn't too bad, a bunch of us went outside and threw each other into snowbanks.
I have a bunch of pictures put into an album from this weekend. You can find them here!
Well, gotta run for now, have a phone cradled on my shoulder right now. Will write again tonight!
hugs!
I had a totally awesome weekend in Maine, with the exception of the new snow. But even that wasn't too bad, a bunch of us went outside and threw each other into snowbanks.
I have a bunch of pictures put into an album from this weekend. You can find them here!
Well, gotta run for now, have a phone cradled on my shoulder right now. Will write again tonight!
hugs!
3/10/05
Peace At Last!
She's asleep. Finally the Terror is asleep! (she's really not a terror unless she's tired.) Not 10 minutes ago she was screaming and thrashing, not wanting to be held... at least by me. Aaron came down, played the Good Guy, and she went out! Poof! just like that! Now she is back in my arms and twitching, looking so peaceful! Awww!
3/9/05
Blech.
Yep, today I feel like you-know-what.
We had to clean the church today... only a few more time and we are DONE! I can't wait. I really don't like that job anymore. So what if it's a little extra pocket money, it drive me insane.
My sisters were seriously PMSing today, couldnt say anything right around them. It rubbed off on my brother, my Mom, and me, so we were just one big PMSing family today! Oh Joy!
We got more snow last night. And wind too. Nasty combo. I am so sick of snow! Please, make it stop! Jordan, you're right, TN is warm! and Jack, sorry, but you're wrong. I won't miss the snow. And Jeremy... well... uh... hi!
I am now sitting here, in front of my computer, with a healthy dose of comfort food. Just finished a Hersheys cookies and cream bar...now I'm on to the Junior Mints. My Coke is sitting nearby.
Here's a question. Why do they make it possible to close a box of Junior Mints? It's right there, "TO CLOSE INSERT TAB IN SLOT" Who needs to close the box? It says right on the side of the box, "Serving Size 1 box" so why close it? They won't even last long enough to have to close the box!
Ahem. Anyways.
What I'm really wanting are Twizzlers. But they didnt have any in the racks by the checkout... Next time though...
Yeah, I was thinking on the way home today that I really need to email Kelly about something... but now I have absolutely no idea what it was. It's gone!
You know, I realized something last night as I was falling asleep...but I can't write it here, because someone may read it. (Yes, it's about someone who reads this... that narrows it down to what, 2 people? lol) When it's time to write here, I'll write it... maybe..... hehehehe
Well, that box of Junior Mints is gone. (what do they call the BIG boxes of Junior Mints? Jumbo Junior mints? hmmm) I guess I should go in search of real food before I break into anymore junk food...not really hungry though... oh well.
That's all for now folks!
Tootles
We had to clean the church today... only a few more time and we are DONE! I can't wait. I really don't like that job anymore. So what if it's a little extra pocket money, it drive me insane.
My sisters were seriously PMSing today, couldnt say anything right around them. It rubbed off on my brother, my Mom, and me, so we were just one big PMSing family today! Oh Joy!
We got more snow last night. And wind too. Nasty combo. I am so sick of snow! Please, make it stop! Jordan, you're right, TN is warm! and Jack, sorry, but you're wrong. I won't miss the snow. And Jeremy... well... uh... hi!
I am now sitting here, in front of my computer, with a healthy dose of comfort food. Just finished a Hersheys cookies and cream bar...now I'm on to the Junior Mints. My Coke is sitting nearby.
Here's a question. Why do they make it possible to close a box of Junior Mints? It's right there, "TO CLOSE INSERT TAB IN SLOT" Who needs to close the box? It says right on the side of the box, "Serving Size 1 box" so why close it? They won't even last long enough to have to close the box!
Ahem. Anyways.
What I'm really wanting are Twizzlers. But they didnt have any in the racks by the checkout... Next time though...
Yeah, I was thinking on the way home today that I really need to email Kelly about something... but now I have absolutely no idea what it was. It's gone!
You know, I realized something last night as I was falling asleep...but I can't write it here, because someone may read it. (Yes, it's about someone who reads this... that narrows it down to what, 2 people? lol) When it's time to write here, I'll write it... maybe..... hehehehe
Well, that box of Junior Mints is gone. (what do they call the BIG boxes of Junior Mints? Jumbo Junior mints? hmmm) I guess I should go in search of real food before I break into anymore junk food...not really hungry though... oh well.
That's all for now folks!
Tootles
3/8/05
New Pictures!
Well, I did it! I put together an album of my semi-serious photos! Anyone who wants to can see them here! Let me know what you guys think.
If you're photographing in color you show the color of their clothes - if you use black and white, you will show the color of their soul. ~Author Unknown
You don't take a photograph, you make it. ~Ansel Adams
If you're photographing in color you show the color of their clothes - if you use black and white, you will show the color of their soul. ~Author Unknown
You don't take a photograph, you make it. ~Ansel Adams
What a day!!
Well, I just got back from orientation. Very interesting. I was the only girl there with three guys. two of the guys want to take the daytime classes, and one guy is planning on the evening classes with me. Classes will be done in May, which means done before camp! Wahoo!
I'll be taking the comprehensive exams next week, so they can figure out which classes I should be in, or if I should just go on to the pre-GED test and completely by-pass the classes.
I felt a little out of place because I was the only person there who didnt drop out of school, I just chose an alternate way of finishing.
The most stressful part of today was driving home! While we were all in the orientation, the snow really picked up, and the roads were really nasty. I had to stop once on the way home to snap the ice off my wipers! It figures, the one spot on my windshield that the wipers skip over, is right in my line of vision... I'm really not liking my wiper blades, need to talk to Dad about getting new ones. My passenger blade hardly works at all since that bird flew into my windshield and messed up the wiper.
Anywho, thats whats happening now. I'll keep everyone posted on how the conprehensive exams went, and everything after that! For now, pray this snow stops, and that the expected snow for Friday goes away, I dont want to drive to Waterville ME in snow! Especially not this kind of nasty slushy snow... blech.
Gotta run, my tummy hasn't eaten all day... nerves...
Hugs!
And Jordan, you were right, I can do this. ;-)
I'll be taking the comprehensive exams next week, so they can figure out which classes I should be in, or if I should just go on to the pre-GED test and completely by-pass the classes.
I felt a little out of place because I was the only person there who didnt drop out of school, I just chose an alternate way of finishing.
The most stressful part of today was driving home! While we were all in the orientation, the snow really picked up, and the roads were really nasty. I had to stop once on the way home to snap the ice off my wipers! It figures, the one spot on my windshield that the wipers skip over, is right in my line of vision... I'm really not liking my wiper blades, need to talk to Dad about getting new ones. My passenger blade hardly works at all since that bird flew into my windshield and messed up the wiper.
Anywho, thats whats happening now. I'll keep everyone posted on how the conprehensive exams went, and everything after that! For now, pray this snow stops, and that the expected snow for Friday goes away, I dont want to drive to Waterville ME in snow! Especially not this kind of nasty slushy snow... blech.
Gotta run, my tummy hasn't eaten all day... nerves...
Hugs!
And Jordan, you were right, I can do this. ;-)
3/6/05
What's Taters, Precious?
Note to self, don't wear heels two days in a row.
Hi! I just got back from a...hilarious evening. I got together with Mike and Andrew, and we stormed the mall. Man, shopping with those two is...interesting. lol But I had fun. Another note to self, dont share a strawberry coolata with Andrew...
But now I'm home, sitting with my potato chips and my mushroms, waiting for supper. Yes, I know I shouldnt snack right before supper, but these fresh sauteed mushrooms are my weakness... shhh. All they need is garlic and chicken with chees sprinkled over the top, and I would be in heaven. A note to anyone who ever wants to butter me up. ;-)
I bought a movie today, "Much Ado About Nothing" with Denzel Washington and Keanu Reeves. Totally awesome movie. I highly recommend it. (Jordan, if you haven't seen it, wait til you come home, you can see it here... with me! :-D )
Time to go, supper's ready!
hugs!
Hi! I just got back from a...hilarious evening. I got together with Mike and Andrew, and we stormed the mall. Man, shopping with those two is...interesting. lol But I had fun. Another note to self, dont share a strawberry coolata with Andrew...
But now I'm home, sitting with my potato chips and my mushroms, waiting for supper. Yes, I know I shouldnt snack right before supper, but these fresh sauteed mushrooms are my weakness... shhh. All they need is garlic and chicken with chees sprinkled over the top, and I would be in heaven. A note to anyone who ever wants to butter me up. ;-)
I bought a movie today, "Much Ado About Nothing" with Denzel Washington and Keanu Reeves. Totally awesome movie. I highly recommend it. (Jordan, if you haven't seen it, wait til you come home, you can see it here... with me! :-D )
Time to go, supper's ready!
hugs!
Sunday Morning!
Good morning! Yes, I know it's almost afternoon, but oh well. I've said good morning to someone at 5pm before... lol
Today I get my cd player put into my car, I am so excited! It plays MP3 disks too....YIPPIE! "She shall have music wherever she goes." Yup, that is so me. Lost without my music. hehehe
Ok, so I'm basically just sitting here, passing the time until the shower is free... I've been lazy this morning... 11:20, and still in my pjs. haha
You know, I'm curious as to who actually reads my blog. So, if you read this post, please leave me a comment! I can count the people who I KNOW read this on one hand, but there may be more, so please, let me know! :-)
I gotta go for now, will try to write again tonight when I get home. Off to see an old friend today.
Tootles!
Today I get my cd player put into my car, I am so excited! It plays MP3 disks too....YIPPIE! "She shall have music wherever she goes." Yup, that is so me. Lost without my music. hehehe
Ok, so I'm basically just sitting here, passing the time until the shower is free... I've been lazy this morning... 11:20, and still in my pjs. haha
You know, I'm curious as to who actually reads my blog. So, if you read this post, please leave me a comment! I can count the people who I KNOW read this on one hand, but there may be more, so please, let me know! :-)
I gotta go for now, will try to write again tonight when I get home. Off to see an old friend today.
Tootles!
One of those surveys EVERYONE loves!
1. Full Name: Ashley Nicole Cheney
2. Birthday: 2/3
3. Age: 19
4. Grade: n/a lol
5. School: home
6. Town: Webster
7. Hair Color: red, aurburn, strawberry blonde, whatever you want to call it.
8. Eye Color: blue/gray
9. Ears: got 'em
10. Glasses or Contacts: glasses
11. Status: umm... single
12. Hobbies: reading, writing, taking pics, talking....
Preferences
(girls)
13. Makeup or None: makeup, just a little
14. Nail Polish or None: sometimes
(all)
15. Casual or Dressy: CASUAL! Jeans all the way.
16. Cats or Dogs: cats
17. Blue or Pink: blue
18. Messy or Neat: um... I try to be neat!
19. Hugs or Handshakes: hugs
20. Rock or Rap: rock
21. Pepsi or Coke: COKE
22. Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate, duh
23. TV or Books: books
24. Comedy or Action: comedy
Friends
Who's the...
25. Nicest: Janelle
26. Quietest: Tiffany
27. Smartest: Adah
28. Smart Ass: Adah lol
29. Preppiest: umm... good question. Sara I think
30. Dumbest: n/a
31. Most Perverted: Erik
32. Weirdest: me, obviously
()()()()Favorites()()()()
33. Singer: do I have to choose?
34. Band: again, can't choose
35. Cd: Bethany Dillon - self titled
36. Subject: English
37. Color: blue or green
38. TV Show: Alias
39. Movie: not really sure
40. Time of Day: night (serious night owl...)
Have You Ever
41. Told Someone You Liked Them: yes
42. Told Someone's Secret: yes, but only because I was seriously conserned for them.
43. Egged Someone's House: nope
44. Had Braces: nope
45. Read A Book With More Than 500 Pages: dont know.
More About You
46.Whats the worst thing you ever called someone(and meant it): jerk
47.Worst Grade You Ever Got: F, only one.
48.Nastiest Fight You Ever Had: with Jeremy, dont even remember really what it was about...
49.Worst Punishent You Ever Had: grounded off computer for two weeks... it was torture. lol
50.Thing You Hate The Most: being lonely
3/5/05
to sleep, or not to sleep... this is the question!
Man, I am sooo tired right now. It would be so easy for me to crawl into bed and sleep the afternoon away!
I saw an old friend in church today... I hadn't seen him since November, and when I did see him, well, it wasn't the best situation. Today he was by himself, and was friendly enough, but I still dont really trust him. He really blew it in November, and right now I dont know if I really want to spend time with him. He and his girlfriend really hurt me, and I dont even know why. I don't know if I should try to talk to him about it. I dont know if I should just let it go and pretend nothing ever happened, pretend I was never hurt. I dont think I can do that.
Oh well... I guess I dont need to worry about it right now.
On a brighter note, I think a friend of mine from church will be coming to the prayer retreat in May with me! She asked me about it today, wanted a registration form! She's a sweet girl, I've been having fun getting to know her, I really believe she will get something special from this retreat.
There's someone else I'd like to have join me at the retreat, but he's insisting on staying in Thailand until the day after the retreat... I think he's just trying to avoid me. ;-) (haha! Just giving you a hard time. :-p)
Today we had a men's rally at our church, so they had their own special Sabbath School, and the women had another class. I was the chosen one to lead out the women's class. I had a topic, knew what I was going to talk about (which is why I'm so tired, was up until 1am working on it), but I was incredibly nervous. I'm not big on being the center of attention. But it worked out OK. When I was finished, and had only used up 15 minutes of our SS time, we brought whoever wanted to down to our new prayer room, and had an On Holy Ground time, which was really special.
Ok, now I am really tired. And my head and knee are both starting to throb. Time to sleep! Hugs to everyone! :-)
I saw an old friend in church today... I hadn't seen him since November, and when I did see him, well, it wasn't the best situation. Today he was by himself, and was friendly enough, but I still dont really trust him. He really blew it in November, and right now I dont know if I really want to spend time with him. He and his girlfriend really hurt me, and I dont even know why. I don't know if I should try to talk to him about it. I dont know if I should just let it go and pretend nothing ever happened, pretend I was never hurt. I dont think I can do that.
Oh well... I guess I dont need to worry about it right now.
On a brighter note, I think a friend of mine from church will be coming to the prayer retreat in May with me! She asked me about it today, wanted a registration form! She's a sweet girl, I've been having fun getting to know her, I really believe she will get something special from this retreat.
There's someone else I'd like to have join me at the retreat, but he's insisting on staying in Thailand until the day after the retreat... I think he's just trying to avoid me. ;-) (haha! Just giving you a hard time. :-p)
Today we had a men's rally at our church, so they had their own special Sabbath School, and the women had another class. I was the chosen one to lead out the women's class. I had a topic, knew what I was going to talk about (which is why I'm so tired, was up until 1am working on it), but I was incredibly nervous. I'm not big on being the center of attention. But it worked out OK. When I was finished, and had only used up 15 minutes of our SS time, we brought whoever wanted to down to our new prayer room, and had an On Holy Ground time, which was really special.
Ok, now I am really tired. And my head and knee are both starting to throb. Time to sleep! Hugs to everyone! :-)
3/4/05
Oh what a beautiful morning!
Oh what a beautiful day!
The sun is shining, the weather is warmer than it has been the last few days, the snow is MELTING! It's wonderful outside!
Outside my window there is a continuous drip-drip-drip of little drops of sunshine falling from the edges of the roof. There is a glow everywhere from the sun shining off the snow. People are out and about enjoying the warmth of today. What a wonderful end to the work week!
I just wanted to share that. :-)
Now I'm off to head back downtown for the rest of the day. Tomorrow we are hosting a mens rally at church. We will have a ton of wonderful gentlemen filling the pews of our sanctuary. I love listening to them sing!! Whoo! (nothing gives me goosebumps like guys who know how to sing, and DO!) I'm really looking forward to it. :-)
Ok, now I'm off. Hugs to all! (especially a special person)
The sun is shining, the weather is warmer than it has been the last few days, the snow is MELTING! It's wonderful outside!
Outside my window there is a continuous drip-drip-drip of little drops of sunshine falling from the edges of the roof. There is a glow everywhere from the sun shining off the snow. People are out and about enjoying the warmth of today. What a wonderful end to the work week!
I just wanted to share that. :-)
Now I'm off to head back downtown for the rest of the day. Tomorrow we are hosting a mens rally at church. We will have a ton of wonderful gentlemen filling the pews of our sanctuary. I love listening to them sing!! Whoo! (nothing gives me goosebumps like guys who know how to sing, and DO!) I'm really looking forward to it. :-)
Ok, now I'm off. Hugs to all! (especially a special person)
3/3/05
Ok, so I lied....
I'm back! I was going to go, but then a song came on, by Martina McBride. It's brought tears to my Mom's eyes, and means a lot to me as well, and I want to share the lyrics with you. It's called "In My Daughter's Eyes" but it could very well be called "In My Sister's Eyes" :-) Enjoy!
"In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me gives me
strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes
And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about
It's hangin' on when your heart
has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daugter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes"
Isn't that an amazing song? My sisters, all three of them, are amazing human beings. They really are miniature adults at times. Hannah and Leah are almost ten, and well on their way to woman-hood (which makes me feel REALLY old). I'm gonna have to keep a bat handy when the guys start calling for them!! heehee, thats my job as big sister. *wink*
Sam, wonderful Sam, is such a handful! She's talking quite a bit now, but even more amazing than that is her facial expressions. Sometimes, she'll do something she knows she shouldn't do, and when you try to correct her seriously, she'll look at you with this look, and you really have to struggle to not laugh out loud. She's a manipulator too! She'll get someone mad at her, and then come over, look up at you with Puss-In-Boots eyes, and ask for a hug. So hard to stay mad at that kid. lol And then, a few nights ago all of us kids were home while Mom and Dad were at a board (bored) meeting, and Sam was being a menace! Finally, we got her wrapped up in a big fuzzy blanket, and I pulled her up in my lap. It didn't take long for her to fall asleep. She is so peaceful when she's sleeping! So quiet! But after a while, she gets really, really heavy!
We've finally taught her "please" and "thank you", though it doesnt actually come out like that. Instead, we get "peas!" and "tanks!" So adorable! She loves her "do-do" (cocoa), and alwys asks for a "sip" of our coffee, even though she knows she can't have any. If she wants you to go somewhere with her she'll give you a pleading look and ask for your "arm" and will drag you along behind her, holding on to a thumb or pinky.
She's 2 now, and growing up so fast! I am so happy I've been able to be a part of her growing up. She can be a pain sometimes, but hey, so can I! People still love me! :-) As far as she knows, I am all knowing, all seeing, all powerful... well, maybe not all powerful.... she knows that's Mom's station. hehe But she can still climb up in my arms and get a hug when she's mad at Mommy, she can still come to me to kiss a boo-boo, and make it all better. She still comes in when I'm trying to study just to say "Hi!" and then run away. She's recently learned a new game. She tells me to be "sad" so she can give me a hug and make me happy again. It's adorable! The first time I did it with her, she didnt know what to do about me! She looked as if she was going to cry as she hugged me so tight! Now she understands though that I'm not really sad, but that a hug makes me happy.... she catches on quick! She totally amazes me with what she knows. What a creature! That little baby brain is fabulous!
Ok, now I'm done raving over my incredible baby sister. lol I really am gonna go now... Mom is tempting me with mushrooms...... mmm... mushrooms.... Hey, Jordan, how do you feel about mushrooms?
Bye!
"In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me gives me
strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes
And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about
It's hangin' on when your heart
has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daugter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes"
Isn't that an amazing song? My sisters, all three of them, are amazing human beings. They really are miniature adults at times. Hannah and Leah are almost ten, and well on their way to woman-hood (which makes me feel REALLY old). I'm gonna have to keep a bat handy when the guys start calling for them!! heehee, thats my job as big sister. *wink*
Sam, wonderful Sam, is such a handful! She's talking quite a bit now, but even more amazing than that is her facial expressions. Sometimes, she'll do something she knows she shouldn't do, and when you try to correct her seriously, she'll look at you with this look, and you really have to struggle to not laugh out loud. She's a manipulator too! She'll get someone mad at her, and then come over, look up at you with Puss-In-Boots eyes, and ask for a hug. So hard to stay mad at that kid. lol And then, a few nights ago all of us kids were home while Mom and Dad were at a board (bored) meeting, and Sam was being a menace! Finally, we got her wrapped up in a big fuzzy blanket, and I pulled her up in my lap. It didn't take long for her to fall asleep. She is so peaceful when she's sleeping! So quiet! But after a while, she gets really, really heavy!
We've finally taught her "please" and "thank you", though it doesnt actually come out like that. Instead, we get "peas!" and "tanks!" So adorable! She loves her "do-do" (cocoa), and alwys asks for a "sip" of our coffee, even though she knows she can't have any. If she wants you to go somewhere with her she'll give you a pleading look and ask for your "arm" and will drag you along behind her, holding on to a thumb or pinky.
She's 2 now, and growing up so fast! I am so happy I've been able to be a part of her growing up. She can be a pain sometimes, but hey, so can I! People still love me! :-) As far as she knows, I am all knowing, all seeing, all powerful... well, maybe not all powerful.... she knows that's Mom's station. hehe But she can still climb up in my arms and get a hug when she's mad at Mommy, she can still come to me to kiss a boo-boo, and make it all better. She still comes in when I'm trying to study just to say "Hi!" and then run away. She's recently learned a new game. She tells me to be "sad" so she can give me a hug and make me happy again. It's adorable! The first time I did it with her, she didnt know what to do about me! She looked as if she was going to cry as she hugged me so tight! Now she understands though that I'm not really sad, but that a hug makes me happy.... she catches on quick! She totally amazes me with what she knows. What a creature! That little baby brain is fabulous!
Ok, now I'm done raving over my incredible baby sister. lol I really am gonna go now... Mom is tempting me with mushrooms...... mmm... mushrooms.... Hey, Jordan, how do you feel about mushrooms?
Bye!
Random Musings
I'm sitting here, listening to Rascal Flatts, eating my chocolate chip cookie dough icecream (my second all time favorite), and just chillin'. Litterally. I should know better then to eat icecream when I'm already cold, but oh well! Who can turn down icecream?? Especially someone who has been craving chocolate for the past 2 days? It was getting to be a desperate situation!! haha
I had a thought that I wanted to write down, but now that I have my keyboard under my fingertips, the though has completely flown away! Poof! Gone! Figures...
So I guess you'll just have to read my ramblings instead! Haha, don't you feel lucky?
I'm thinking about putting up a photo album on my website with all my photos. Like my black and white pics, and my sepia pics, all my serious attempts at photography. :-) I actually have quite a few. Maybe I'll do that in the next week or so...
I got wonderful news this morning! The head honcho for the Extreme Teens, Kelly, emailed me telling me I was invited to attend the upcoming training weekend! I havne't been to any since I left the team (I was 18, kinda just moved on, but still active in the Youth Ministry part of it). I am so excited!
Well, since I have to be up early tomorrow for another day on the town, I should get going... plus, talking about that photo album makes me really want to put it together, so I think I'll go do that now. :-)
Hugs!
I had a thought that I wanted to write down, but now that I have my keyboard under my fingertips, the though has completely flown away! Poof! Gone! Figures...
So I guess you'll just have to read my ramblings instead! Haha, don't you feel lucky?
I'm thinking about putting up a photo album on my website with all my photos. Like my black and white pics, and my sepia pics, all my serious attempts at photography. :-) I actually have quite a few. Maybe I'll do that in the next week or so...
I got wonderful news this morning! The head honcho for the Extreme Teens, Kelly, emailed me telling me I was invited to attend the upcoming training weekend! I havne't been to any since I left the team (I was 18, kinda just moved on, but still active in the Youth Ministry part of it). I am so excited!
Well, since I have to be up early tomorrow for another day on the town, I should get going... plus, talking about that photo album makes me really want to put it together, so I think I'll go do that now. :-)
Hugs!
Bethany Dillon song...
Walk towards me
I want to hear
The heavens singing over you
When you breathe
And look at me
I want to be captured by you
Gaze into my eyes
And let me know you’d fight
Thousands, for my love
Slip your hand in mine
Ask me to dance with you tonight
Just ask me for my love
I want to hide
What’s deep in my eyes
I’m scared to be known by you
But when I turn my head
And see you there
I want to be pursued
A dream I won’t wake from
A story that will never end
The ground your feet walk on
Let me be there, let me be there
Bless The Broken Road
I set out on a narrow way
Many years ago
Hoping I would find true love
Along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign
Pointed straight to you
Chorus:
Every long lost dream
Led me to where you are
Other who broke my heart
They were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent
Just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost
And give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan
That is coming true
Chorus:
That every long lost dream
Led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart
They were like shining stars
Pointing on my way
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
~Rascal Flatts~
Many years ago
Hoping I would find true love
Along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign
Pointed straight to you
Chorus:
Every long lost dream
Led me to where you are
Other who broke my heart
They were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent
Just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost
And give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan
That is coming true
Chorus:
That every long lost dream
Led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart
They were like shining stars
Pointing on my way
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
~Rascal Flatts~
Ponderings, Doubts, Wonderings...
We all have them. Me especially, I think. See, a lot of times, I am so concerned with messing something up, that I analyze the situation too much. It really annoys me! I'll be going along just fine, loving my life, and then WHAM! a doubt hits me square in the nose, and I start to wonder, is this the right thing? is this really gonna work out? am I spending all these emotions for nothing? am I going to just get hurt again?
It's hard to live with that, ya know? I tend to need a lot of certainty. I'm working on it, because I know life doesn't always come with a guarantee, but I'm still a major work in progress.
Take a couple situations in my life right now. First off, school. Ok, so I don't agree with the philosophy of text books very well... They bore me, ok? But my lack of interest is coming back to bite me in the butt with college looming, and my high school career not yet finished. I'm in my 5th year of high school. (a downside to homeschooling, I study when I want...not good) While I dont regret staying home, I'm beginning to regret my lack of initiative and self-discipline. If I don't get my act together, I fail high school. It's that something great to have on my educational track record? So, I'm getting myself signed up for GED classes, since I have resigned myself to not finishing my high school program. Soon, I'll be going to classes a couple evenings a week to study for the GED test. Classroom work, this is new to me. I know I can do it, but there are those stupid little nagging doubts in the back of my head that tell me I wont make it, that something this simple is gonna flop, and I'll eternally be a high school drop out with no hope of anything more. What a great confidence booster, dontcha think?
And then there's my...my someone special. Right now, I feel completely clueless when it comes to any sort of relationship. I dont know what to expect, what to plan for, what not to plan for...it's like I've never had a relationship before, and I'm scared to death. I can't even put into words what I'm feeling right now. I'm trying to be mature and just let things happen, but sometimes I worry that they WON'T happen...and I don't want that. But then I think that it's not up to me, that God has a plan all worked out, and that makes me sad, because what if this person isnt God's plan for me? I really want this person to be my Mr. Right. And then, I realize that my life IS in God's hands, and that I dont have to worry, because He knows what He's doing and wants what's best for me. Ahhhh, then I just keep going in circles! I just want somebody to love! But not just anybody. That's not too much to ask, is it? I care about the one person I never thought I'd have the opportunity to care about. It still takes me by surprise every time I think about him.
Whew, I guess I could put some of that into words after all...
I suppose all my thoughts and doubts need to all come down to two verses.
"I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out - plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for." Jer. 29:11 MSG
"I am not ashamed, because I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him for that day" 2 Tim. 1:12 NIV
One day at a time... That's all I can do right now. God knows the future I hope for, and if He wants it to happen, then it will happen... but I admit, I'm terribly impatient!!
Hugs, and goodnight!
It's hard to live with that, ya know? I tend to need a lot of certainty. I'm working on it, because I know life doesn't always come with a guarantee, but I'm still a major work in progress.
Take a couple situations in my life right now. First off, school. Ok, so I don't agree with the philosophy of text books very well... They bore me, ok? But my lack of interest is coming back to bite me in the butt with college looming, and my high school career not yet finished. I'm in my 5th year of high school. (a downside to homeschooling, I study when I want...not good) While I dont regret staying home, I'm beginning to regret my lack of initiative and self-discipline. If I don't get my act together, I fail high school. It's that something great to have on my educational track record? So, I'm getting myself signed up for GED classes, since I have resigned myself to not finishing my high school program. Soon, I'll be going to classes a couple evenings a week to study for the GED test. Classroom work, this is new to me. I know I can do it, but there are those stupid little nagging doubts in the back of my head that tell me I wont make it, that something this simple is gonna flop, and I'll eternally be a high school drop out with no hope of anything more. What a great confidence booster, dontcha think?
And then there's my...my someone special. Right now, I feel completely clueless when it comes to any sort of relationship. I dont know what to expect, what to plan for, what not to plan for...it's like I've never had a relationship before, and I'm scared to death. I can't even put into words what I'm feeling right now. I'm trying to be mature and just let things happen, but sometimes I worry that they WON'T happen...and I don't want that. But then I think that it's not up to me, that God has a plan all worked out, and that makes me sad, because what if this person isnt God's plan for me? I really want this person to be my Mr. Right. And then, I realize that my life IS in God's hands, and that I dont have to worry, because He knows what He's doing and wants what's best for me. Ahhhh, then I just keep going in circles! I just want somebody to love! But not just anybody. That's not too much to ask, is it? I care about the one person I never thought I'd have the opportunity to care about. It still takes me by surprise every time I think about him.
Whew, I guess I could put some of that into words after all...
I suppose all my thoughts and doubts need to all come down to two verses.
"I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out - plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for." Jer. 29:11 MSG
"I am not ashamed, because I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him for that day" 2 Tim. 1:12 NIV
One day at a time... That's all I can do right now. God knows the future I hope for, and if He wants it to happen, then it will happen... but I admit, I'm terribly impatient!!
Hugs, and goodnight!
3/2/05
Ack!
Well, I've done it. I've gotten myself signed up for GED prep classes. I go in for orientation next Tuesday (3/8) at 1. From there, they will evaluate what I already know to determine what I will need for classes. I'm praying really hard that I won't need much, because I want this to be done before camp starts on June 10th. That's what most worries me! But I suppose I need to just leave it in God's hands and make sure my priorities are in the right order... But I can tell you, that's hard. It's hard enough to sign up for these classes in the first place, but it's got to be done. I have to start working towards college with a vengance!!! Well, ok, maybe not vengance... Maybe excitement? Commitment? I dunno... all I know is I have to work towards it if I'm gonna get there!
Next up, where do I go for college?! I am leaning heavily towards Southern for several reasons...But I dont know! I hadn't even considered that school until recently, but nothing is really telling me not to go there. Though, nothing's telling me not to go to AUC or Andrews either... so that doesnt help. I just need something BIG to tell me I DO need to go to Southern, or any other college for that matter! So if anyone has a really good reason why I should go to Southern, please tell me! I just need one good reason, one big nudge in that direction, thats all! I've finally settled on a major (for now) and Southern offers it! But so do AUC, Andrews, Union, they all do... So academics won't convince me. Ahh! Help!
Continue to pray with me about school... it's an ongoing struggle for me at the moment... Somedays I just want to give it all up because it frustrates me so, but I know I can't do that. There are other areas of my life right now that I tend to question sometimes, but school is the foremost. Keep my in your prayers!
Now that I've gotten all that written down, I'm gonna get going. Been reading through Acts today. Can you believe, in all of my 19 years, in all of my studying, I have never once read through Acts? It's crazy, I know. Well, I'm reading it now. I'm working up to reading The Great Controversy, and I want to have Acts under my belt first. Almost done!
Now I'm really gonna go. :-) Take care, hugs to all, a really big hug to someone special.
TTFN!
Next up, where do I go for college?! I am leaning heavily towards Southern for several reasons...But I dont know! I hadn't even considered that school until recently, but nothing is really telling me not to go there. Though, nothing's telling me not to go to AUC or Andrews either... so that doesnt help. I just need something BIG to tell me I DO need to go to Southern, or any other college for that matter! So if anyone has a really good reason why I should go to Southern, please tell me! I just need one good reason, one big nudge in that direction, thats all! I've finally settled on a major (for now) and Southern offers it! But so do AUC, Andrews, Union, they all do... So academics won't convince me. Ahh! Help!
Continue to pray with me about school... it's an ongoing struggle for me at the moment... Somedays I just want to give it all up because it frustrates me so, but I know I can't do that. There are other areas of my life right now that I tend to question sometimes, but school is the foremost. Keep my in your prayers!
Now that I've gotten all that written down, I'm gonna get going. Been reading through Acts today. Can you believe, in all of my 19 years, in all of my studying, I have never once read through Acts? It's crazy, I know. Well, I'm reading it now. I'm working up to reading The Great Controversy, and I want to have Acts under my belt first. Almost done!
Now I'm really gonna go. :-) Take care, hugs to all, a really big hug to someone special.
TTFN!
3/1/05
I'm gonna be running....
And yes, I will explain that.
But first, I have a quote. I get really good, thought-provoking quotes in my email every morning, and this mornings was GOOD.
But first, I have a quote. I get really good, thought-provoking quotes in my email every morning, and this mornings was GOOD.
"There are many people who are sincere without being simple: they are ever afraid of being seen for what they are not; they are always musing over their words and thoughts and thinking about what they have done, in fear of having done or said too much. These people are sincere, but they are not simple: they are not at ease with others, and other people are not at ease with them. There is nothing easy about them, nothing free, spontaneous or natural. People who are imperfect, less regular, less masters of themselves, are more lovable. This is how people find them, and it is the same with God." I know several people who are just like that. It's frustrating how they over-analize everything and miss the real meaning. And now, another quote, it's actually from a song, and it explains my title for this post. "I'm gonna stop lookin' back There ya go, just some thoughts to chew on. :-)
And start movin' on
And learn how to face my fears
Love with all of my heart
And make my mark
I wanna leave something here
Go out on a ledge without any net
That's what I'm gonna be about
Yeah, I wanna be runnin' when the sand runs out."
~Rascal Flatts 'When The Sand Runs Out"
Have a nice day!
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