"There you go changing my plans again
There you go shifting my sands again
For reasons I don't understand again
Lately I don't have a clue
Just when I start liking what I see
There you go changing my scenery
I never know where you're taking me
But I'm trying just to follow you
It's out of my hands
It's out of my reach
It's over my head
And it's out of my league
There's too many things
That I don't understand
So it's into your will
And it's out of my hands"
~Out Of My Hands by Matthew West
This is my theme song! I've thought I had my plans all set SO MANY TIMES, but in the end, something always happens to change them. It really shows that I have no control over how my life goes, I just have to go where He leads me. It's not as easy as it sounds, and more than once I've come back with a broken heart because I set my mind and my heart in one direction, but it didn't work out as I had planned. It's something very easy for me to do, but very hard for me to admit and fix. Every time something goes not as I planned and messes up MY idea of my life, I play this song. It reminds me that there is a bigger and better plan for me when what I think up myself.
Tootles!
10/29/04
Condo or Heart????
Both!
I was talking with my friend Alyssa (Hi Judd!) and the topic of boyfriends came up. I mentioned that right now the "Boyfriend Apartment" of my heart was vacant. This led to a very good discussion about the Condo of our Hearts. I will elaborate. :-)
My heart is like a condo building, with different apartments for different people in my life. There are the dorm rooms for all my friends; the Family condo, with rooms for all my siblings and extended family; the Boyfriend Apartment; and several guest rooms.
The Friend Dorm rooms. They are split up into Best Friend rooms and Friend Rooms. The Best Friend rooms surround my private dwelling, always just a call away, or even a thought away. The Friend rooms are close, but not as close as the Best Friend rooms. All together, these rooms tend to change owners often as my friends move on in their lives. They may move from a Best Friend room to a Friend room, or vice versa. Or, in very hard situations, may move out altogether.
The Boyfriend Apartment has been vacant for a while now. It might be a little intimidating at the moment. It needs upkeep, TLC, and commitment. A couple of guys have taken a peek inside the door, but in the end decided to just sign the guestbook and promise to "keep in touch."
Alyssa went on to ask me where my husband would one day take up residence. I told her, The Honeymoon Suite, of course! When that happens, the Boyfriend Apartment will be turned into bedrooms for the kids!
But in order to get to any of these rooms, you have to go through the Master Suite, lived in by my Landlord, Jesus Christ. You have to stop here before going into any of the other rooms or apartments. You have to be cleared for entry before taking up residence.
I was talking with my friend Alyssa (Hi Judd!) and the topic of boyfriends came up. I mentioned that right now the "Boyfriend Apartment" of my heart was vacant. This led to a very good discussion about the Condo of our Hearts. I will elaborate. :-)
My heart is like a condo building, with different apartments for different people in my life. There are the dorm rooms for all my friends; the Family condo, with rooms for all my siblings and extended family; the Boyfriend Apartment; and several guest rooms.
The Friend Dorm rooms. They are split up into Best Friend rooms and Friend Rooms. The Best Friend rooms surround my private dwelling, always just a call away, or even a thought away. The Friend rooms are close, but not as close as the Best Friend rooms. All together, these rooms tend to change owners often as my friends move on in their lives. They may move from a Best Friend room to a Friend room, or vice versa. Or, in very hard situations, may move out altogether.
The Boyfriend Apartment has been vacant for a while now. It might be a little intimidating at the moment. It needs upkeep, TLC, and commitment. A couple of guys have taken a peek inside the door, but in the end decided to just sign the guestbook and promise to "keep in touch."
Alyssa went on to ask me where my husband would one day take up residence. I told her, The Honeymoon Suite, of course! When that happens, the Boyfriend Apartment will be turned into bedrooms for the kids!
But in order to get to any of these rooms, you have to go through the Master Suite, lived in by my Landlord, Jesus Christ. You have to stop here before going into any of the other rooms or apartments. You have to be cleared for entry before taking up residence.
There is a BIG room in the back full of file cabinet after file cabinet. These are all my memories over my 18 years. Some are a little dusty, others are so new they haven't been added to any drawer just yet and are just sitting in a pile right inside the door.
But most important in my eyes is the guestbook right inside the front door. All the people I have come in contact with throughout my life have signed this book, and their picture is there too. There are categories in this book; "crushes," "friends," "acuaintences," "boyfriends," "best friends," "awesome adults," and a miscellaneous category. I know each name in this book, though some have been in there so long, I may not remember them right off.
So there you have it, the Condo of my Heart. Feel free to stop in anytime!
God Bless!
Like Coffee Icecream?
Then have I got something for you!
My Mom and I love our coffee, and are always finding new ways to "dress it up." Sometimes she adds these yummy flavored syrups, hazelnut, french vanilla, it makes it yummy...
But recently she has come up with a brilliant new way to make coffee. And it is GOOD!
In a large travel mug (as I said, we take our coffee SERIOUSLY) add two spoonfuls of instant coffee and about 4 or 5 teaspoons of sugar, to taste. DONT ADD WATER! Here is the fun part, instead of adding water, fill the mug with cold whole milk. It takes a little bit to mix in the coffee and sugar, but once everything is mixed, it tastes like a cross between a Dunkin's coolata and melted coffee icecream! SO good. I have one sitting beside me as I type!
So, if you are as into coffee as my Mom and I are, give this a try. You can fix the measurements to fit a small cup too, not too hard to do.
Enjoy!
My Mom and I love our coffee, and are always finding new ways to "dress it up." Sometimes she adds these yummy flavored syrups, hazelnut, french vanilla, it makes it yummy...
But recently she has come up with a brilliant new way to make coffee. And it is GOOD!
In a large travel mug (as I said, we take our coffee SERIOUSLY) add two spoonfuls of instant coffee and about 4 or 5 teaspoons of sugar, to taste. DONT ADD WATER! Here is the fun part, instead of adding water, fill the mug with cold whole milk. It takes a little bit to mix in the coffee and sugar, but once everything is mixed, it tastes like a cross between a Dunkin's coolata and melted coffee icecream! SO good. I have one sitting beside me as I type!
So, if you are as into coffee as my Mom and I are, give this a try. You can fix the measurements to fit a small cup too, not too hard to do.
Enjoy!
10/18/04
Wherever You Are
"Come out moon
Come out wishing star
Come out, come out
Wherever you are
I'm out here in the dark
All alone and wide awake
Come and find me
I'm empty and I'm cold
And my heart's about to break
Come and find me
I need you to come here and find me
'Cos without you I'm totally lost
I've hung a wish on every star
It hasn't done much good so far
I can only dream of you
Wherever you are
I'll hear you laugh
I'll see you smile
I'll be with you
Just for a while
But when the morning comes
And the sun begins to rise
I will lose you
Because it's just a dream
When I open up my eyes
I will lose you
I used to believe in forever
But forever's too good to be true
I've hung a wish on every star
It hasn't done much good so far
I don't know what else to do
Except to try to dream of you
And wonder if you are dreaming too
Wherever you are
Wherever you are"
~Winnie The Pooh 'Wherever You Are' from "The Search For Christopher Robin"
Come out wishing star
Come out, come out
Wherever you are
I'm out here in the dark
All alone and wide awake
Come and find me
I'm empty and I'm cold
And my heart's about to break
Come and find me
I need you to come here and find me
'Cos without you I'm totally lost
I've hung a wish on every star
It hasn't done much good so far
I can only dream of you
Wherever you are
I'll hear you laugh
I'll see you smile
I'll be with you
Just for a while
But when the morning comes
And the sun begins to rise
I will lose you
Because it's just a dream
When I open up my eyes
I will lose you
I used to believe in forever
But forever's too good to be true
I've hung a wish on every star
It hasn't done much good so far
I don't know what else to do
Except to try to dream of you
And wonder if you are dreaming too
Wherever you are
Wherever you are"
~Winnie The Pooh 'Wherever You Are' from "The Search For Christopher Robin"
Some lyrics....
"Here I stand, here I see,
The distractions dull the reflection
That I want to be.
But I'm not coasting,
I'm deep devoted on searching,
To know the impossible,
Knowing that it is possible for me."
"Hunger" by Steve http://www.steverock.com
"I don't wanna let you down
I don't wanna jump to drown
I just wanna sing the song You sang
Show me in the melody
Write it in the sky to see
I just want to know You smile on me"
"Smile" by Steve
My brother just bought this CD recently, and the songs on it are amazing. I encourage all of you to buy it! It's called "Falling Down". VERY GOOD!!!
The distractions dull the reflection
That I want to be.
But I'm not coasting,
I'm deep devoted on searching,
To know the impossible,
Knowing that it is possible for me."
"Hunger" by Steve http://www.steverock.com
"I don't wanna let you down
I don't wanna jump to drown
I just wanna sing the song You sang
Show me in the melody
Write it in the sky to see
I just want to know You smile on me"
"Smile" by Steve
My brother just bought this CD recently, and the songs on it are amazing. I encourage all of you to buy it! It's called "Falling Down". VERY GOOD!!!
10/14/04
Thought for the day...
I heard this quote in a country song today, some of you may recognize it.
"You can't really smile until you shed some tears."
It's true. Take a few minutes to think about it and find out what it means to you. Have you had a situation where you've cried your eyes out, and then been able to look back on it and see all the good? Have you ever had your heart broken by someone, but then been able to smile about the good times you had with them? Sometimes you need to have a good cry before you can move on to the next curve ball Life throws at you.
Just a thought.
TtFn.
"You can't really smile until you shed some tears."
It's true. Take a few minutes to think about it and find out what it means to you. Have you had a situation where you've cried your eyes out, and then been able to look back on it and see all the good? Have you ever had your heart broken by someone, but then been able to smile about the good times you had with them? Sometimes you need to have a good cry before you can move on to the next curve ball Life throws at you.
Just a thought.
TtFn.
10/13/04
The countdown begins!!
22 days until the Avalon, Mark Schultz, Matthew West concert!
Check them out!
www.avalonlive.com
www.markschultzmusic.com
www.matthewwest.com
Cumberland County Civic Center in Portland, ME., November 4th!
See you at the concert!!
Check them out!
www.avalonlive.com
www.markschultzmusic.com
www.matthewwest.com
Cumberland County Civic Center in Portland, ME., November 4th!
See you at the concert!!
10/10/04
Website is up!
The not-so-long awaited website is up and running at last!!
http://kiswebdesigns.com/inimitableone
It isn't perfect, but all the links work. None of the pages have anything on them, that is my next undertaking. Bear with me here! This is the first time I've made a website and actually taken it so far as to upload it!!
So yeah, as you can see by the links, I plan to have some of my pics up there, both silly and serious, along with some of my poetry. (Not the greatest, but one of my fun pastimes) I'll work on getting that stuff up over the next few days so there is something to see!
TtFn!
http://kiswebdesigns.com/inimitableone
It isn't perfect, but all the links work. None of the pages have anything on them, that is my next undertaking. Bear with me here! This is the first time I've made a website and actually taken it so far as to upload it!!
So yeah, as you can see by the links, I plan to have some of my pics up there, both silly and serious, along with some of my poetry. (Not the greatest, but one of my fun pastimes) I'll work on getting that stuff up over the next few days so there is something to see!
TtFn!
Breakfast Issues
Ok, tell me, is there anything wrong with eating Runts for breakfast? They are fruit, after all! I mean, you got your bananas, your strawberries, your blueberries, your cherries, and even oranges! What could be wrong with that?
And what's so bad about eating chocolate for supper? It's a vegetable!
Kinda funny, I work for a dentist....
Hmmm..... ;-)
And what's so bad about eating chocolate for supper? It's a vegetable!
Kinda funny, I work for a dentist....
Hmmm..... ;-)
Special Message For...
Since I am unable to talk to this person directly at this time, I'm going to leave a post here. If he sees it, well and good. If he does not, he'll learn this eventually one way or another.
He knows who he is.
Hey you. We had quite a talk tonight, huh? I'm sorry this turned into something so difficult. I never expected any of this. I thought I had "everything all planned out." There was a guy I was interested in, I thought things would work out. I wasn't "looking" for anyone. Then I met you. At first I just shrugged it off for the same reasons you did, how could anything come of it, you were leaving soon and I probably would never see you again, plus, you were probably too busy to email much. I didn't even expect you to email me that night.
But you did.
I never expected to see you again.
But I did.
I never expected us to get to be good friends and spend so much time together.
But we did.
How can I explain that? Something clicked the night we met, even though neither of us caught it. I don't know what it was, and I may never know. But whatever it was was unforgettable. If it weren't, there would be no need for me to write this right now.
You tell me you are seriously dating someone right now. Ok. I didn't expect that either. The thought was in the back of my mind at the very beginning, but I dismissed it, didn't want to think about it. So I didn't.
I do wish you had told me sooner. That does hurt. But I'm glad you were honest with me now. I pray that things work out with you and her however God intends. I also pray that she knows what a wonderful man you are, and how blessed she is to have you in her life. But I also hope you will be as honest with her as you have been with me.
I want you to know that I hold no hard feelings. I'm not bitter. I'm strong, it takes a lot to really crush me. I had a very good time with you, I had fun getting to know you, and teasing you, and even finding out just how far I could push you before you got annoyed. :-) That time was special, and no matter what comes of this, I'll always remember it with a smile.
Please don't be too hard on yourself. It shows a lot about your character with the fact that you don't want to compromise your current relationship by starting something with me. I really admire your loyalty. I know it can be hard in your situation right now, and I may not understand all the in's and out's, but I'm trying.
I know you need time right now to work things out for yourself. That's fine. Whatever conclusion you come to will be ok by me, even if it isn't the conclusion I was hoping for. But I can give you that time, if nothing else. You have no obligations to me, and I'll understand if you move on without looking back. But I want you to know that you do mean a lot to me, you are very special to me, I'll never forget you, and I will always be praying for you.
I leave you with this: Never forget that you have a friend hiding here in Sticksville if you ever need one, complete with bunnies and jackrabbits. :-)
This one's for you.
He knows who he is.
Hey you. We had quite a talk tonight, huh? I'm sorry this turned into something so difficult. I never expected any of this. I thought I had "everything all planned out." There was a guy I was interested in, I thought things would work out. I wasn't "looking" for anyone. Then I met you. At first I just shrugged it off for the same reasons you did, how could anything come of it, you were leaving soon and I probably would never see you again, plus, you were probably too busy to email much. I didn't even expect you to email me that night.
But you did.
I never expected to see you again.
But I did.
I never expected us to get to be good friends and spend so much time together.
But we did.
How can I explain that? Something clicked the night we met, even though neither of us caught it. I don't know what it was, and I may never know. But whatever it was was unforgettable. If it weren't, there would be no need for me to write this right now.
You tell me you are seriously dating someone right now. Ok. I didn't expect that either. The thought was in the back of my mind at the very beginning, but I dismissed it, didn't want to think about it. So I didn't.
I do wish you had told me sooner. That does hurt. But I'm glad you were honest with me now. I pray that things work out with you and her however God intends. I also pray that she knows what a wonderful man you are, and how blessed she is to have you in her life. But I also hope you will be as honest with her as you have been with me.
I want you to know that I hold no hard feelings. I'm not bitter. I'm strong, it takes a lot to really crush me. I had a very good time with you, I had fun getting to know you, and teasing you, and even finding out just how far I could push you before you got annoyed. :-) That time was special, and no matter what comes of this, I'll always remember it with a smile.
Please don't be too hard on yourself. It shows a lot about your character with the fact that you don't want to compromise your current relationship by starting something with me. I really admire your loyalty. I know it can be hard in your situation right now, and I may not understand all the in's and out's, but I'm trying.
I know you need time right now to work things out for yourself. That's fine. Whatever conclusion you come to will be ok by me, even if it isn't the conclusion I was hoping for. But I can give you that time, if nothing else. You have no obligations to me, and I'll understand if you move on without looking back. But I want you to know that you do mean a lot to me, you are very special to me, I'll never forget you, and I will always be praying for you.
I leave you with this: Never forget that you have a friend hiding here in Sticksville if you ever need one, complete with bunnies and jackrabbits. :-)
This one's for you.
10/9/04
Random Thought
I heard this at a seminar recently. Comment if you wish.
An apple tree is not an apple tree BECAUSE it bears apples. An apple tree bears apples because it IS an apple tree. Likewise, a Christian isn't a Christian BECAUSE they do good works. A Christian does good works because they ARE Christian.
Iiinteresting....
TTFN!
An apple tree is not an apple tree BECAUSE it bears apples. An apple tree bears apples because it IS an apple tree. Likewise, a Christian isn't a Christian BECAUSE they do good works. A Christian does good works because they ARE Christian.
Iiinteresting....
TTFN!
10/8/04
The Beginning...
Alright, here is the beginning of my blog... I'm still getting used to all this, so bear with me!
I'm hoping this can be a place were I post a lot of my thoughts, musings, interests, and experiences. So check back now and then and see what's up!
Tootles Tooties!
I'm hoping this can be a place were I post a lot of my thoughts, musings, interests, and experiences. So check back now and then and see what's up!
Tootles Tooties!
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