Yeah, so, I'm feeling gray.
Life is overwhelming, it really is. Just when you think everything is under control, BAM, something hits and everything kind of explodes into a million peices.
Or maybe, everything is already on the verge of exploding, and just when something tiny bumps it, then everything falls apart.
Or maybe both.
Yeah, as you have probably figured out, I'm a little frustrated with my life right now. I'm sick and tired of my plans changing for one reason or another. I wish I could just depend on something. Right now, I can't depend on anything! I'm having issues with trusting people, even though things are OK with the person who caused that I'm still having problems. I feel like I'm on the brink of being depressed, if not already there, thanks to school issues, relationship issues, and spiritual issues. I'm a mess! (I put on a good front, dont I?) I don't want to talk about this with anyone, and I really don't know why. I just dont want to. I'm not the one who supposed to have problems. I'm the one who helps other people. Ok that doesnt sound right... I'm the one who's supposed to be the support, thats what I love doing. I shouldn't need to be supported. Nah thats not quite right either. Oh well. Forget it.
If I dont think about my life too hard, I'm fine. All hunky dory. I just need to keep busy.
Yeah, if you know me personally and read this, don't worry. I'm fine. Just dont ask me about school, and dont ask me if I have a boyfriend, and we'll be all set!
Going to bed now, long day tomorrow...
2 comments:
you can depend on God.
You can surely trust in Him.
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