Mercies New

Lately I've been struggling to recapture my relationship with God. I let things grow stale, and then realized I missed it. It's been hard though. I've been working towards it for a couple of months now. It's funny how you don't realize how far away you've gotten until you take a moment and look back at where you were.

I was on Extreme Teens. I went to church regularly. I marked up my Bible so much, it was getting hard to close.

Then something, I don't know what, happened. I found myself wanting to sleep instead of go to church. I couldn't even pray silently to myself at meals. I went to a prayer retreat with some ET alums, and was physically uncomfortable the whole day. I literally felt like something was sitting on my chest, and just kept getting heavier. That was the final straw. I knew then that I had to do something. I felt like I was almost to the point of no return, and it scared the pee out of me.

It certainly has not been easy. You can just ask Jordan if you don't believe me. (He is fantastic, and has been so amazing while I sort things out and get back on my feet again. Couldn't have done it without him)

As I was driving to work the other day, I was listening to Nochole Nordeman's "Woven and Spun" cd. If you haven't listened to it, you should.

The second song on the CD is amazing. I don't even know what to say about it, but I want to share the lyrics with you.


Miracles New

Is it fair to say I was lured away?
By endless distractions and lovelier attractions then
Or fairer still, my own free will
Is the better one to blame for this familiar mess I've made again

So I would understand, if you were out of patience
And I would understand, if I was out of chances

Your mercies are new every morning
So let me wake with the dawn
When the music is through or so it seems to be
Let me sing a new song, old things gone
Every day it's true, You make all your mercies new

The distance left between east and west
Is how far You would go to forget the debt I owe
And thrown into the sea, the wicked ways in me
Will never have a chance to wash back on the sand

So I would understand if you would make me pay
And I would understand lying in the bed I've made

Your mercies are new every morning
So let me wake with the dawn
When the music is through or so it seems to be
Let me sing a new song, old things gone
Every day it's true, You make all your mercies new

Up comes the sun on every one of us
Gone, gone, gone the guilt and shame that knew your name

Your mercies are new every morning
So let me wake with the dawn
When the music is through or so it seems to be
Let me sing a new song, old things gone
Every day it's true, You make all your mercies new



See? Good song!!!

It was something I needed to be reminded of. I think it's something we all need to be reminded of every now and then. When we think we're completely out of chances, God renews his mercies every morning. Even when we deserve nothing, He still gives us everything.

Pretty cool, huh?