That I've got a lovely bunch of coconuts....
So, it's raining. I mean Serious rain. Has been since last night. Non-stop. HEAVY rain.
Like, somehow knocked the power out last night.
Like, could take a shower out there.
Like, sounds like a marching band on the roof.
Like, I wonder if we'll have a driveway or a moat in the morning.
Like, dig a hole and let it fill for a swimming pool.
Like, if only it was warm, thundering and lightning-ing and it'd be perfect.
Yeah.
So, away from the water topic. How's life? Just fine, thanks for asking, how's yours?
woah. I dont think I want to sit like that. my KNEECAP fell asleep... weird.
Yes, I am in a very random mood tonight. Forgive me. I just dont know what color to use, so I'll change it again. Let's see... I think I want to be purple now. Purple is good.
So, I was thinking yesterday (scary, I know) while I was cleaning Kipp and Seavey's kennel. What a pair. Both bachelors. Both players (meaning not fixed). What if they were people? What would they be like? Here's what I came up with.
I'll start with Kipp. The older, more mature dog. When he was in that kennel alone, it was always the cleanest kennel. He never pooped IN his kennel, and very rarely did anything else. He ate and slept and was happy.
But then, due to other doggie issues, Seavey had to move in. The bachelor pad had a new roomie.
But anyways, I was telling you about Kipp.
Kipp is the older dog, so I picture him as an older guy. He is one of the sweetest dogs, most of the time. He'll jump up on the table while I'm cleaning so that when I walk by, he can reach out and lick my as I walk by. Such a flirt.
If he were a guy, he'd probably be big into theater. Broadway shows, expencive resturants, yacht clubs, black tie affairs. He'd probably be loved by the ladies, both old and young. He wouldnt be able to settle down with just one girl for life though, but when he does have a special lady, she is treated like a queen. Once the relationship was over though, they'd still remain friends, getting together when he was in town, maybe rekindling the romance for a night...
He's usually pretty even tempered, but if another guy picks a fight, he'll not back down. Sometimes some strong words (or growls) are exchanged, but thats to the restraint Kipp has (a fence in most cases) nothing serious comes of it. It's all just noise.
But when it comes to a lady's honor, that's a whole different story.
Celebrity alter-ego? James Bond...picture Pierce Brosnan.
And now, I'd like to introduce you to Kipp's current roommate, Seavey.
Seavey is one of the younger dogs. He's the one that, as soon as you put him back in his kennel, he will go right to the clean water bucket, and stand in it with his front paws, splashing fresh drinking water all over.
Since moving in with Kipp Seavey has proceeded to trash the kennel. He poops everywhere, and both dogs have been vying for the territory, so there is pee everywhere. He's also been chewing on the doghouses, leaving woodchips everywhere.
He's the upstart, trying to find his place, but having a blast doing it.
Seavey is the wild one. He's cute, and he knows it. He picks on the oldest dog, Nemo, constantly when they are out. When he's in the kennel, he picks fights with another youngster, Downey, always from the safety of his pen. All talk, no action. Just noise.
Seavey would be the partier were he a guy. Out every night, coming home at 3 in the morning, probably drunk. Or he'll host parties in the apartment, and leave them for his roomie to clean up. He thinks he's God's gift to women. Never had a serious girlfriend, but lost count of all the one-night-stands. Bad with names, but seems to attract the girls who dont care what you call them.
Favorite movie? American Pie
So, there's a little insight into the characters I work with... I mean, my dogs. ;-)
Wow it's kinda late now! I think I'm gonna close this for now. I'll write again soon. If it's raining again tomorrow, I'll be here, and I'll be bored, so I'll write.
much love!
10/6/05
Curly or Straight, that is the question....
Ah, life, gotta either take it or leave it, dontcha? And if ya leave it, it just keeps on going without you, hardly waiting for you to change your mind and catch up. Funny how that works.
Do you ever feel completely alone in a huge crowd of people? Or claustrophobic when you are all by yourself? Hmmm....
And why is it that the days I want my hair curly, it dries as straight as it possible can, but when I want it straight, it curls right up? Grrr... time to pull out the straightener....
So yah, now that I have all that out of my system....
I have a stuffy nose! Argh! So annoying. I'm either sniffling, or I can't talk straight. I really dont like being sick. Who knows if I am really sick, or if it's just leftovers from my big cry last night. Either way, it can go away now.....
I've got an hour before class. I'm looking forward to the time away. As every day goes by, I get a little more antsy. I feel like I'm running out of air to breathe, space to move, room to think. And I dont know how to fix it.
But on the bright side, my Jordan is wonderful. I can't thank God enough for him. I can't tell him how much I love him. He's my best friend, my confidant, my love. I miss him so much, but I am SO looking forward to seeing him again. It's almost time for midterms. Half way there!
So yah, I suppose that's it for now. Can't think of anything else to write right now... Maybe later tonight. Hmmm...
Do you ever feel completely alone in a huge crowd of people? Or claustrophobic when you are all by yourself? Hmmm....
And why is it that the days I want my hair curly, it dries as straight as it possible can, but when I want it straight, it curls right up? Grrr... time to pull out the straightener....
So yah, now that I have all that out of my system....
I have a stuffy nose! Argh! So annoying. I'm either sniffling, or I can't talk straight. I really dont like being sick. Who knows if I am really sick, or if it's just leftovers from my big cry last night. Either way, it can go away now.....
I've got an hour before class. I'm looking forward to the time away. As every day goes by, I get a little more antsy. I feel like I'm running out of air to breathe, space to move, room to think. And I dont know how to fix it.
But on the bright side, my Jordan is wonderful. I can't thank God enough for him. I can't tell him how much I love him. He's my best friend, my confidant, my love. I miss him so much, but I am SO looking forward to seeing him again. It's almost time for midterms. Half way there!
So yah, I suppose that's it for now. Can't think of anything else to write right now... Maybe later tonight. Hmmm...
10/2/05
Sherbert for Breakfast!
Yummmmmy!
One of the pluses to not being able to eat solid foods, I get the good stuff, like sherbert!!
I'm recovering pretty well, surprisingly. Hopefully I'll be good as new SOON! It's only been two days, and I'm sick of this. (Well, not sick of the sherbert...)
My honey is off being an athlete today. He's taking part in a triathalon! I wish I could be there on the sidelines, cheering him on, but I'm stuck here. Next time! I love you, babe!
So yeah, I suppose thats just a short post. I might have more to post later today, we'll see.
Hugs to ya!
One of the pluses to not being able to eat solid foods, I get the good stuff, like sherbert!!
I'm recovering pretty well, surprisingly. Hopefully I'll be good as new SOON! It's only been two days, and I'm sick of this. (Well, not sick of the sherbert...)
My honey is off being an athlete today. He's taking part in a triathalon! I wish I could be there on the sidelines, cheering him on, but I'm stuck here. Next time! I love you, babe!
So yeah, I suppose thats just a short post. I might have more to post later today, we'll see.
Hugs to ya!
10/1/05
By The Way...
I have got the worlds greatest boyfriend!! He sent me 18 baby roses, yellow, red, and pink, for our 2 month anniversary!!!!
But thats not all.
They arrived yesterday, the day I got my teeth pulled. Now I get to recover with the lovely smell of roses in my room.
I love you, Jordan!!!
But thats not all.
They arrived yesterday, the day I got my teeth pulled. Now I get to recover with the lovely smell of roses in my room.
I love you, Jordan!!!
The Tale of 4 Teeth
They are gone! Gone! My childhood wisdom is gone forever with my wisdom teeth!
Ok, I'll explain. Yesterday morning, I woke up at 6:45. By 8, Mom was getting used to driving my car as we headed to the oral surgeon's. I'll never forget my Doc's name. Rosato. Sounds like pasta. Mom and I were laughing about it while we were sitting in the waiting room. The nurse came in. dun dun dun. She got me settled into the chair, hooked up to the machine (those pads were COLD!), and the blood pressure cuff, which squeezed my arm every 5 minutes. Almost 10 minutes later the Doc came in too. He layed the chair back, and slipped this thing over my nose, I'm sure i looked goofy. Then they plugged my hand into the IV. That wasnt too bad at all. For my first IV, I expected it to hurt more. Not so! hardly felt a thing. Giving blood hurt more. Then the Doc said he was going to give me a steroid to help with the swelling. I remember the nurse chuckling about how she has to do things in a certain order every time. I remember nothing else. 30 seconds tops from when they started the IV until I was out.
The next thing I remember was them telling me they were going to bring Mom in. Recovery! Dont really remember much about my time in that room, I was kinda touch and go. I do remember I got a ride out to the car in the wheelchair, but I dont remember the ride at all. I dont really remember the ride home either. But I DO remember how numb the lower half of my face was. I couldnt feel anything on my chin or lower lip!! Or my tongue, which is a very weird feeling. The first time Mom changed the packing in my mouth, I just about passed out.
I slept on and off, with ice inbetween, but since I couldnt feel my mouth, I couldnt take any meds. Half of my face came back to life pretty quick, including half of my tongue. At least I could drink now. The other half of my face was still coming back by the time I went to bed last night. It felt all tingly every time I touched it, like a foot that fell asleep. This morning, I can feel my whole mouth just fine.
I haven't had any of the gauze in my mouth since yesterday afternoon, and I start salt water rinses today. blech. But such is recovery.
The good part is, I'm hardly swollen at all. One side of my face, the side that came back sooner, isnt' swollen at all. And the other side is a little bit. No chipmunk cheeks for me! Wahoo!
So, there's the tale of my 4 teeth. Not too gory, actually. I'm gonna go ice my face now, and probably sleep some.
love and hugs.
Ok, I'll explain. Yesterday morning, I woke up at 6:45. By 8, Mom was getting used to driving my car as we headed to the oral surgeon's. I'll never forget my Doc's name. Rosato. Sounds like pasta. Mom and I were laughing about it while we were sitting in the waiting room. The nurse came in. dun dun dun. She got me settled into the chair, hooked up to the machine (those pads were COLD!), and the blood pressure cuff, which squeezed my arm every 5 minutes. Almost 10 minutes later the Doc came in too. He layed the chair back, and slipped this thing over my nose, I'm sure i looked goofy. Then they plugged my hand into the IV. That wasnt too bad at all. For my first IV, I expected it to hurt more. Not so! hardly felt a thing. Giving blood hurt more. Then the Doc said he was going to give me a steroid to help with the swelling. I remember the nurse chuckling about how she has to do things in a certain order every time. I remember nothing else. 30 seconds tops from when they started the IV until I was out.
The next thing I remember was them telling me they were going to bring Mom in. Recovery! Dont really remember much about my time in that room, I was kinda touch and go. I do remember I got a ride out to the car in the wheelchair, but I dont remember the ride at all. I dont really remember the ride home either. But I DO remember how numb the lower half of my face was. I couldnt feel anything on my chin or lower lip!! Or my tongue, which is a very weird feeling. The first time Mom changed the packing in my mouth, I just about passed out.
I slept on and off, with ice inbetween, but since I couldnt feel my mouth, I couldnt take any meds. Half of my face came back to life pretty quick, including half of my tongue. At least I could drink now. The other half of my face was still coming back by the time I went to bed last night. It felt all tingly every time I touched it, like a foot that fell asleep. This morning, I can feel my whole mouth just fine.
I haven't had any of the gauze in my mouth since yesterday afternoon, and I start salt water rinses today. blech. But such is recovery.
The good part is, I'm hardly swollen at all. One side of my face, the side that came back sooner, isnt' swollen at all. And the other side is a little bit. No chipmunk cheeks for me! Wahoo!
So, there's the tale of my 4 teeth. Not too gory, actually. I'm gonna go ice my face now, and probably sleep some.
love and hugs.
9/28/05
socks and flip-flops
So hot! Oh yeah!Anyways, so how am I? I am peachy! I am missing my sweetie like crazy, but I'm surviving.
Work is going well. I think I've finally got all the dogs matched with the right name. That was tough. Next I have to remember who gets fed how much and in which doghouse! Thats a little harder. But I totally love the dogs. They are all awesome! The funniest thing is when I'm cleaning the puppy pen... Brooks, the babysitter, usually just sits on the doghouse and watches me, waiting til I get close enough to give me kisses. But Spirit, the baby, is all energy. I've never seen a kid with that much energy!! She's psycho! But adorable. Most of the time I'm cleaning the pen, she's at my heels, chewing on my boots, or she's stuffing her muzzle down into my boots, or trying to pull my jeans out of my boots! When I move, she moves with me. It's so crazy!!
Class is going well too. I'm getting to know some of the people there. It's fun to get there early just to talk to people. We've been having issues with the vending machines though. First, only one of the two soda machines accepts dollar bills. The snack machine doesnt accept them either, and is running very low. The stuff that's still in there is... old. The soda machine is completely our of Dr. Pepper, which makes me sad. Whenever I want it, they are out. Hopefully they will fill up the machines today or tomorrow so I can have my Dr. Pepper on Thursday!
Friday is the day. I'll lose my wisdom....teeth. Yeppers, all four wisdom teeth are impacted. I can feel one of them poking through my gums too! Lucky me! I'll be going completely under for this, which has me kinda nervous. Mom's the only one going with me, so I'm not worried too much about being loopy on the way home. Needless to say, I won't be going anywhere this weekend. I'll be home with my vicaden and icepacks and sherbert. (so anyone going to the Deerfield fair, I wont be there, as much as I wish I could be!)
I suppose that's all for now. I'l gonna try to update more often!! Sorry I've been so behind.... I'll work on that.
I'm going to leave with these lyrics for my honey. I love you, babe!
"It's the sweet love that you give to me
That makes me believe we can make it through anything
'Cause when it all comes down
And I'm feeling like I'll never last
I just lean on you 'cause baby
You're my better half."
Tata!
9/11/05
I have some good news, and some more good news!
For the good news, I got the scores for my GED!!! I passed by LOTS! :-D I needed a 450 average to squeak past. I got a 618. Yay!!! Highschool is now in my past! yippie!!!
The second bit of good news is........ drum roll please....
I GOT A JOB! Yay!!!! lol It's only part time, about 9 hours a week tops, but it'll be fun. It's at a Siberian Husky sled dog kennel about 5 minutes down the road. So cool!! I'm an official pooper scooper!! lol The dogs are totally gorgeous though. I think it'll be a fun job. I start on Wednesday. 31 dogs to feed, clean up after, and give meds to as neccessary.
The classes are going well, my second week with those is just starting. So far, I'm enjoying them. There are people from all walks of life there. Fun stuff!
Just so people know, there are new pics up on my website. A few other little things have been updated too. you can check out the site HERE!
Well, I guess that's it for an update right now. Will post again soon, I promise. :-)
The second bit of good news is........ drum roll please....
I GOT A JOB! Yay!!!! lol It's only part time, about 9 hours a week tops, but it'll be fun. It's at a Siberian Husky sled dog kennel about 5 minutes down the road. So cool!! I'm an official pooper scooper!! lol The dogs are totally gorgeous though. I think it'll be a fun job. I start on Wednesday. 31 dogs to feed, clean up after, and give meds to as neccessary.
The classes are going well, my second week with those is just starting. So far, I'm enjoying them. There are people from all walks of life there. Fun stuff!
Just so people know, there are new pics up on my website. A few other little things have been updated too. you can check out the site HERE!
Well, I guess that's it for an update right now. Will post again soon, I promise. :-)
9/9/05
Totally and Completely!!!
Yes, its true, I'm totally and completely in love! and I want the world to know it! :-D
I Love Jordan!!!!
There! That's all for now! :-)
I Love Jordan!!!!
There! That's all for now! :-)
9/8/05
It smells like....
Fall!!
Ok, I just got up. Need to work on that. Got water heating for some instant coffeeeeeeee... speaking of which, it's whistling now! be right back...
*elevator music*
I'm baaaaack!! With lovely coffeeeeeeee!
Alright, I suppose I need to go through the shower... people might appreciate that. Yah... going now...
Ok, I just got up. Need to work on that. Got water heating for some instant coffeeeeeeee... speaking of which, it's whistling now! be right back...
*elevator music*
I'm baaaaack!! With lovely coffeeeeeeee!
Alright, I suppose I need to go through the shower... people might appreciate that. Yah... going now...
9/7/05
Starbucks, Cashews, and a Psychotic Canary
It's Wednesday. Hump Day. Middle of the week.
And it's 3:18pm.
Sunny with a high of 75.
The Big Dig is still going on, only the excavation site has moved from my room to the front porch. All the stuff I put in boxes to just get OUT ended up on the porch, and now has to be sorted. This morning my room looked clean! Now, not so much...
Class started last night. It's a college transition class. We'll be going over study skills, english, math, and some other useful college info. Goes til the middle of December, just like a college semester. So far, so good, though I already have homework! Nothing too hard though. So, for the next 15 weeks, I'll be gone Tue. and Thur. evenings, from about 5:30 to 9:30 as the class is from 6 to 9.
Anyone want a bird? I have a psychotic canary that needs a good home. I have limited space in my room as it is, and the bird is taking up valuable space. I wont tell you how it likes to stick it's head thru the bars of it's cage... or repeatedly jumps from dish to swing to branch to dish to swing to branch.... making sure the swing hits the side of the cage every time with a BANG. Nice bird!
So, I got a new cd yesterday. Matthew West's "History". Very good, I highly recommend it! There are so many good songs on this cd, but with current events, both here and around the world, I want to share one particular song with you.
"When a nation cries
When a loved one dies
When we wonder why
I still know you're there
When nights are long
In a world gone wrong
There's still a feeling so strong
That tells me you're there
You're so undeniable
You're so unconfinable
And you're love is so reliable
And it tells me you're there
So if the whole wide world says
You're not there
Well, I still know you're there
And even if they call me crazy
I don't care
I still know you're there
And if they say there's no such thing
as heaven or a God who waits for me
I just point to the air
And I know you're there"
Thats just one verse and the chorus. Pretty cool, huh? It's something we have to keep in mind, with all the distruction resulting from hurricane Katrina, it can be easy for some to doubt God's presence. But this song reminds us that even though we are living in a dying world, God IS still there!! And He's got a reason for all of this. Whether it's just to bring out the "Good Samaritan" in all of us, or to let us know His coming is REALLY close, there's a reason.
I personally home He comes soon... I dont know how much more of all this I can handle. I'm ready to go home.
Another song from the same cd, really beautiful:
"There is a longing deep inside my soul
There is a place my spirit wants to go
It's far away from all these chains that bind
There is a world I long to leave behind
So I wait and I wait
I wait for the moment when You come for me
And rescue my heart from the pain that it's seen
Troubles are circling all around me
And I can't stop thinking
Just a few more days I'll be going home
Just a few more hours and I'll be flying
It could be any minute now
That You take me away
Or maybe just a few more days
A few more days
To you a day is like a thousand years
And only you know when the clouds will clear.
So, let me not forget and fall away
Because a thousand years could be today"
Interesting thought, huh? I thought so.
I checked out the Ace place where my brother works. They can't hire relatives of employees. Oh well. I picked up an application on the way home for a garden center/nursery on the way home. They said they didnt have any openings, but I could apply and they'd go from there. So who knows. I need to find a job.
I don't know how to go about it though, finding a job. I mean, if I am able to go to school in January, I'll have to quit whatever job I find here. But there's a chance that I wont make it to Southern in Jan. So what do I plan for now? Do I find a job and let them know I MIGHT not stay? Or should I just plan on staying? I dont know!! Ahhhhh!!!
Well, my Starbucks is gone now. The last of my stash. I think I need to go shopping again.
Time to get back to digging!
love and hugs!
And it's 3:18pm.
Sunny with a high of 75.
The Big Dig is still going on, only the excavation site has moved from my room to the front porch. All the stuff I put in boxes to just get OUT ended up on the porch, and now has to be sorted. This morning my room looked clean! Now, not so much...
Class started last night. It's a college transition class. We'll be going over study skills, english, math, and some other useful college info. Goes til the middle of December, just like a college semester. So far, so good, though I already have homework! Nothing too hard though. So, for the next 15 weeks, I'll be gone Tue. and Thur. evenings, from about 5:30 to 9:30 as the class is from 6 to 9.
Anyone want a bird? I have a psychotic canary that needs a good home. I have limited space in my room as it is, and the bird is taking up valuable space. I wont tell you how it likes to stick it's head thru the bars of it's cage... or repeatedly jumps from dish to swing to branch to dish to swing to branch.... making sure the swing hits the side of the cage every time with a BANG. Nice bird!
So, I got a new cd yesterday. Matthew West's "History". Very good, I highly recommend it! There are so many good songs on this cd, but with current events, both here and around the world, I want to share one particular song with you.
"When a nation cries
When a loved one dies
When we wonder why
I still know you're there
When nights are long
In a world gone wrong
There's still a feeling so strong
That tells me you're there
You're so undeniable
You're so unconfinable
And you're love is so reliable
And it tells me you're there
So if the whole wide world says
You're not there
Well, I still know you're there
And even if they call me crazy
I don't care
I still know you're there
And if they say there's no such thing
as heaven or a God who waits for me
I just point to the air
And I know you're there"
Thats just one verse and the chorus. Pretty cool, huh? It's something we have to keep in mind, with all the distruction resulting from hurricane Katrina, it can be easy for some to doubt God's presence. But this song reminds us that even though we are living in a dying world, God IS still there!! And He's got a reason for all of this. Whether it's just to bring out the "Good Samaritan" in all of us, or to let us know His coming is REALLY close, there's a reason.
I personally home He comes soon... I dont know how much more of all this I can handle. I'm ready to go home.
Another song from the same cd, really beautiful:
"There is a longing deep inside my soul
There is a place my spirit wants to go
It's far away from all these chains that bind
There is a world I long to leave behind
So I wait and I wait
I wait for the moment when You come for me
And rescue my heart from the pain that it's seen
Troubles are circling all around me
And I can't stop thinking
Just a few more days I'll be going home
Just a few more hours and I'll be flying
It could be any minute now
That You take me away
Or maybe just a few more days
A few more days
To you a day is like a thousand years
And only you know when the clouds will clear.
So, let me not forget and fall away
Because a thousand years could be today"
Interesting thought, huh? I thought so.
I checked out the Ace place where my brother works. They can't hire relatives of employees. Oh well. I picked up an application on the way home for a garden center/nursery on the way home. They said they didnt have any openings, but I could apply and they'd go from there. So who knows. I need to find a job.
I don't know how to go about it though, finding a job. I mean, if I am able to go to school in January, I'll have to quit whatever job I find here. But there's a chance that I wont make it to Southern in Jan. So what do I plan for now? Do I find a job and let them know I MIGHT not stay? Or should I just plan on staying? I dont know!! Ahhhhh!!!
Well, my Starbucks is gone now. The last of my stash. I think I need to go shopping again.
Time to get back to digging!
love and hugs!
9/5/05
Lunch Break!
Yes, I know it's almost 4pm, but I'm just now getting lunch. Why? I'll tell you.
Today, Labor Day, 2005, is monumental. Should be declared a national holiday! (wait a sec...) Why? I'll tell you.
What makes today so special? Why am I making such a big deal about it? Why am I only now eating lunch? Why do I have the equivalent of about 4 cups of coffee running through my system? Why do I stink? Why am I covered in dust and cobwebs? Why am I armed with a vaccum? Why am I asking you so many questions that you obviously don't know the answer to? I dont know.
But! Drum roll please.....
Today is the day I found my floor!!! Did you know I had a blue carpet? Neither did I!!!
Not only did I uncover my floor, but I also dragged out a bunch of junk, made a pile in the dining room and out on the front porch. And when that was done, I rearranged my furniture!!! My room looks so good now! I dont want to move all that stuff back in, it's so open and CLEAN!!! But I need to go through all my stuff anyways, and get rid of things I dont need, will never use, or that just collect dust.
When I look at the pile of stuff that's out here, I wonder how on earth all that came out of my room... my room is SMALL! I have no idea how it all fit in there! It's gonna be a looooong work in progress to get everything sorted out and back in there...or gone completely.
I want to paint too....the walls in there are... well... icky. It was my sisters' room before mine, and they kinda attacked the walls... crayon, pen, tape... time to clean up the place. If I can't get a bigger room, I might as well make mine tolerable. I need to find some funky colors to paint it. I think I'll check out the "Oops" paint shelf at my brother's work, see if there's anything I can use.
Well, lunch break should be over. I need to get back to work.
Tootles!
Today, Labor Day, 2005, is monumental. Should be declared a national holiday! (wait a sec...) Why? I'll tell you.
What makes today so special? Why am I making such a big deal about it? Why am I only now eating lunch? Why do I have the equivalent of about 4 cups of coffee running through my system? Why do I stink? Why am I covered in dust and cobwebs? Why am I armed with a vaccum? Why am I asking you so many questions that you obviously don't know the answer to? I dont know.
But! Drum roll please.....
Today is the day I found my floor!!! Did you know I had a blue carpet? Neither did I!!!
Not only did I uncover my floor, but I also dragged out a bunch of junk, made a pile in the dining room and out on the front porch. And when that was done, I rearranged my furniture!!! My room looks so good now! I dont want to move all that stuff back in, it's so open and CLEAN!!! But I need to go through all my stuff anyways, and get rid of things I dont need, will never use, or that just collect dust.
When I look at the pile of stuff that's out here, I wonder how on earth all that came out of my room... my room is SMALL! I have no idea how it all fit in there! It's gonna be a looooong work in progress to get everything sorted out and back in there...or gone completely.
I want to paint too....the walls in there are... well... icky. It was my sisters' room before mine, and they kinda attacked the walls... crayon, pen, tape... time to clean up the place. If I can't get a bigger room, I might as well make mine tolerable. I need to find some funky colors to paint it. I think I'll check out the "Oops" paint shelf at my brother's work, see if there's anything I can use.
Well, lunch break should be over. I need to get back to work.
Tootles!
9/4/05
M&Ms, Twizzlers, and Sweethearts
Alright, I was reminded that I promised a post about my life, so here it is!
Well, the GED is done and over with, just waiting to hear back with my scores. Tuesday evening I go back to the place where I took the test. They are offering a college transition class that I'm gonna try to get into. It starts on Tuesday, and technically I have to have passed my GED. But by the time the class starts, we wont have the scores back yet. But! The lady I talked to said that I could come down and go through the process of starting the class. When they get my scores, if I dont pass, I'll have to quit the class. But if I do pass, I'll have not missed anything. Yay!! This class goes for 15 weeks, Tuesday and Thursday evenings. I'm starting to look forward to it!
My next venture is finding a job. I think I'm going to apply to the same place my brother is working. Ace hardware! Aaron likes it a lot, has nothing but good to say about the people there, and they seem to be flexable with their work hours, which will be good. I just need something to pay for my gas, clothes, and to start saving.
I opened my first checking account recently!! Yay! I feel so grown up now! I've had my savings acct for years, but now I have the power of... dun dun dun... CHECKS! muahahaha
16 weeks. 16 long weeks until I get to see my sweetie again. It seems soooooooo long! But he's been wonderful to me. I couldn't ask for a sweeter, more considerate guy. No matter how sad I may be, or how much I'm missing him, he always knows just what to say to make me feel better. He can always make me smile, even when I don't think I can. He knows me better than just about anyone. He's a mind reader! :-)
I just want anyone who reads this to know one thing.
I LOVE JORDAN WAGNER!!!!! :-D
So, those are the biggest, most exciting points of my life right now. As things progress, I'll keep y'all posted.
Much love and hugs!
Well, the GED is done and over with, just waiting to hear back with my scores. Tuesday evening I go back to the place where I took the test. They are offering a college transition class that I'm gonna try to get into. It starts on Tuesday, and technically I have to have passed my GED. But by the time the class starts, we wont have the scores back yet. But! The lady I talked to said that I could come down and go through the process of starting the class. When they get my scores, if I dont pass, I'll have to quit the class. But if I do pass, I'll have not missed anything. Yay!! This class goes for 15 weeks, Tuesday and Thursday evenings. I'm starting to look forward to it!
My next venture is finding a job. I think I'm going to apply to the same place my brother is working. Ace hardware! Aaron likes it a lot, has nothing but good to say about the people there, and they seem to be flexable with their work hours, which will be good. I just need something to pay for my gas, clothes, and to start saving.
I opened my first checking account recently!! Yay! I feel so grown up now! I've had my savings acct for years, but now I have the power of... dun dun dun... CHECKS! muahahaha
16 weeks. 16 long weeks until I get to see my sweetie again. It seems soooooooo long! But he's been wonderful to me. I couldn't ask for a sweeter, more considerate guy. No matter how sad I may be, or how much I'm missing him, he always knows just what to say to make me feel better. He can always make me smile, even when I don't think I can. He knows me better than just about anyone. He's a mind reader! :-)
I just want anyone who reads this to know one thing.
I LOVE JORDAN WAGNER!!!!! :-D
So, those are the biggest, most exciting points of my life right now. As things progress, I'll keep y'all posted.
Much love and hugs!
The Beatitudes....a little different.
Hello friends!
I found something Sabbath that really caught my eye, and I wanted to share it with you all!!
In class, we were reading a story in the Insight about the Beatitudes. The story was written to make them real, current, easy to understand. Very well done. My curiosity was peaked, so I looked them up in my Message Bible. Ooooohhhhh, they were gooooood!! That's what I want to share with you now! Enjoy!
Matthew 5:1-12
When Jesus saw his ministry drawing huge crowds, he climbed a hillside. Those who were apprenticed to him, the committed, climbed with him. Arriving at a quiet place, he sat down and taught his climbing companions. This is what he said:
"You're blessed when you're at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule.
"You are blessed when you feel you've lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the One who is most dear to you.
"You're blessed when you're content with just who you are -- no more, no less. That's the moment you find yourselves proud owners of everything that can't be bought.
"You're blessed when you've worked up a good appetite for God. He's the food and drink in the best meal you'll ever eat.
"You;re blessed when you care. At the moment of being 'care-full,' you find yourselves cared for.
"You're blessed when you get your inside world -- your mind and heart -- put right. Then you can see God in the outside world.
"You're blessed when you can show people how to cooperate instead of compete or fight. That's when you discover who you really are, and your place in God's family.
"You're blessed when your commitment to God provokes persecution. The persecution drives you even deeper into God's kingdom.
"Not only that -- count yourselves blessed every time people put you down or throw you out or speak lies about you to discredit me. What is means is that the truth is too close for comfort and they are uncomfortable. You can be glad when that happens -- give a cheer, even! -- for though they don't like it, I do! And all heaven applauds. And know that you are in good company. My prophets and witnesses have always gotten into this kind of trouble."
Whew! There's a lot more to it then you thought!!
I just wanted to share those with all of you. Hope you got something out of them! :-)
Must run now, got some more yard work to do before I can really sit down and relax. But when all my work is done, I'll post an update on life for you all.
Until then, much love and hugs!!
I found something Sabbath that really caught my eye, and I wanted to share it with you all!!
In class, we were reading a story in the Insight about the Beatitudes. The story was written to make them real, current, easy to understand. Very well done. My curiosity was peaked, so I looked them up in my Message Bible. Ooooohhhhh, they were gooooood!! That's what I want to share with you now! Enjoy!
Matthew 5:1-12
When Jesus saw his ministry drawing huge crowds, he climbed a hillside. Those who were apprenticed to him, the committed, climbed with him. Arriving at a quiet place, he sat down and taught his climbing companions. This is what he said:
"You're blessed when you're at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule.
"You are blessed when you feel you've lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the One who is most dear to you.
"You're blessed when you're content with just who you are -- no more, no less. That's the moment you find yourselves proud owners of everything that can't be bought.
"You're blessed when you've worked up a good appetite for God. He's the food and drink in the best meal you'll ever eat.
"You;re blessed when you care. At the moment of being 'care-full,' you find yourselves cared for.
"You're blessed when you get your inside world -- your mind and heart -- put right. Then you can see God in the outside world.
"You're blessed when you can show people how to cooperate instead of compete or fight. That's when you discover who you really are, and your place in God's family.
"You're blessed when your commitment to God provokes persecution. The persecution drives you even deeper into God's kingdom.
"Not only that -- count yourselves blessed every time people put you down or throw you out or speak lies about you to discredit me. What is means is that the truth is too close for comfort and they are uncomfortable. You can be glad when that happens -- give a cheer, even! -- for though they don't like it, I do! And all heaven applauds. And know that you are in good company. My prophets and witnesses have always gotten into this kind of trouble."
Whew! There's a lot more to it then you thought!!
I just wanted to share those with all of you. Hope you got something out of them! :-)
Must run now, got some more yard work to do before I can really sit down and relax. But when all my work is done, I'll post an update on life for you all.
Until then, much love and hugs!!
8/24/05
Good Eeeeeevening!
Hello friends, I'm back again!
Well, the second part of my GED test is done. Only one night to go! Tonights tests were social studies and science. I feel pretty confident about them. Most of the questions were just common sence, I really love multiple choice tests!! heehee Tomorrow night is the math test. Eek! I just need at least a 410 on it. That's it! Maybe I'll actually study for it tomorrow... hmm... nah, I probably wont. lol
We've been having fun lately introducing Sammy to classic Disney movies. We watched Cinderella twice yesterday, Beauty and the Beast this morning, and now we are watching Peter Pan. She's seen them all before, I think, but didnt really pay much attention. This time around, she's captivated! Can't take her eyes off the screen! :-)
Well, time to go. I've got a date with a webcam. ;-)
Hugs!
Well, the second part of my GED test is done. Only one night to go! Tonights tests were social studies and science. I feel pretty confident about them. Most of the questions were just common sence, I really love multiple choice tests!! heehee Tomorrow night is the math test. Eek! I just need at least a 410 on it. That's it! Maybe I'll actually study for it tomorrow... hmm... nah, I probably wont. lol
We've been having fun lately introducing Sammy to classic Disney movies. We watched Cinderella twice yesterday, Beauty and the Beast this morning, and now we are watching Peter Pan. She's seen them all before, I think, but didnt really pay much attention. This time around, she's captivated! Can't take her eyes off the screen! :-)
Well, time to go. I've got a date with a webcam. ;-)
Hugs!
Back!
Hello my friends! Sorry it's been so long since my last post. Time ran away from me again! I really gotta get a leash!
Anyways, this past weekend I spent up at my Gram's. We had a nice time, just relaxing. Spent some quality time on the beach too, it was a beautiful day to go. Misty and gray, but warm. I loved it! I took a bunch of pictures.
Yesterday I took the first part of my GED test. I go back for the next part tonight, and the last part tomorrow night. Pray for me!! I really want to pass this!!
Gotta run for now, sorry this is so short. I'll write again soon... hopefully... :-)
Love yaz!
Anyways, this past weekend I spent up at my Gram's. We had a nice time, just relaxing. Spent some quality time on the beach too, it was a beautiful day to go. Misty and gray, but warm. I loved it! I took a bunch of pictures.
Yesterday I took the first part of my GED test. I go back for the next part tonight, and the last part tomorrow night. Pray for me!! I really want to pass this!!
Gotta run for now, sorry this is so short. I'll write again soon... hopefully... :-)
Love yaz!
8/18/05
Student Driver?
Hello my friends! Ashley's thoughts and ponderings are back again!
I was driving today, and had my Stellar Kart cd playing in the car, (highly recommend) and the song "Student Driver" came on. I'm going to give you some of the lyrics, and then I'll tell you the thoughts I had as I was listening to it.
"Two hands on the wheel of my fate
Sweat running down my forehead
Cars passing me like we're in a race
I don't know what dangers lie ahead
'Cause I'm just a student driver
And I need Your help to guide me
'Cause on my own I'm nothing
Looks like the road ahead
Might be rough to take
Oh, no, I've spun out of control
Good thing my passenger has a brake
And he knows exactly where to go"
Not bad, huh? The song's got a little of a punky sound, really fun.
Anyways, my thoughts.
As I was listening to the song, I was remembering my own experience as a student driver. First of all, I remember my driver's ed teacher not only had a brake on his side of the car, he also had a mirror so he could see my eyes.
One time when I was driving, something off to the left caught my eye. As I was looking, the car drifted to the left, almost crossing the line.
Another problem I had was, I was trying too hard to stay between the lines. I kept my eyes on the road directly in front of the car, making sure I was evenly between the lines on the road. I couldnt see what was coming at me very well, and I still wasn't centered in my lane.
And when I kept looking at the speedometer, to make sure I wasn't going too fast or too slow, I'd be taking my eyes off the road too often.
My driver's ed teacher LOVED me! hahahaha
Eventually I got the hang of keeping my eyes on everything at once, staying in my lane, keeping a steady speed (70 is good, right?), and looking ahead of me, not just right infront of me.
When you think of all that in the context of the song I showed you, it's got a pretty good parallel, huh?
I kinda like the idea of Christ as my driver's ed teacher. Imagine the patience He'd have!
How many times do we get distracted by something on the side of the road and take our eyes off our goal? How many times do we get so caught up in watching our speed that we dont pay attention to much else? And how many times to we watch just what is right infront of us, and forget to look ahead?
Yet each time we make a mistake like that, our Passenger still keeps an eye on where we are going. He knows what's coming, and gently gets our attention back where it should be. He'll use that extra brake sometimes too, if we dont get the hint the first time.
Isnt that a cool idea?!
I was driving today, and had my Stellar Kart cd playing in the car, (highly recommend) and the song "Student Driver" came on. I'm going to give you some of the lyrics, and then I'll tell you the thoughts I had as I was listening to it.
"Two hands on the wheel of my fate
Sweat running down my forehead
Cars passing me like we're in a race
I don't know what dangers lie ahead
'Cause I'm just a student driver
And I need Your help to guide me
'Cause on my own I'm nothing
Looks like the road ahead
Might be rough to take
Oh, no, I've spun out of control
Good thing my passenger has a brake
And he knows exactly where to go"
Not bad, huh? The song's got a little of a punky sound, really fun.
Anyways, my thoughts.
As I was listening to the song, I was remembering my own experience as a student driver. First of all, I remember my driver's ed teacher not only had a brake on his side of the car, he also had a mirror so he could see my eyes.
One time when I was driving, something off to the left caught my eye. As I was looking, the car drifted to the left, almost crossing the line.
Another problem I had was, I was trying too hard to stay between the lines. I kept my eyes on the road directly in front of the car, making sure I was evenly between the lines on the road. I couldnt see what was coming at me very well, and I still wasn't centered in my lane.
And when I kept looking at the speedometer, to make sure I wasn't going too fast or too slow, I'd be taking my eyes off the road too often.
My driver's ed teacher LOVED me! hahahaha
Eventually I got the hang of keeping my eyes on everything at once, staying in my lane, keeping a steady speed (70 is good, right?), and looking ahead of me, not just right infront of me.
When you think of all that in the context of the song I showed you, it's got a pretty good parallel, huh?
I kinda like the idea of Christ as my driver's ed teacher. Imagine the patience He'd have!
How many times do we get distracted by something on the side of the road and take our eyes off our goal? How many times do we get so caught up in watching our speed that we dont pay attention to much else? And how many times to we watch just what is right infront of us, and forget to look ahead?
Yet each time we make a mistake like that, our Passenger still keeps an eye on where we are going. He knows what's coming, and gently gets our attention back where it should be. He'll use that extra brake sometimes too, if we dont get the hint the first time.
Isnt that a cool idea?!
8/17/05
Hump Day
Hey Folks! It's Wendesday. (in case you didnt know.) And the week is now half over.
I'm sitting here, infront of my computer, with my second cup of coffee. I'm getting kinda antsy though... I really want to go do something. And I think I will soon. I need to make a run downtown. The mall is calling me!
After being on the run all summer, being home where things run a little slower is kinda hard. I need to find myself a job. I really want to apply at this one greenhouse/nursery in town. I've wanted to work there for a couple years, but just never got around to checking it out. Maybe I'll stop in there on my way downtown... Or maybe I'll wait until next week...
Oh, but next week I go for my GED exams! Say a prayer for me Tue., Wed., and Thur. nights, starting at 6pm. Those are the days I take the test. At the moment, I'm not really nervous, but I know the closer it gets, the more nervous I'll get!
Monday morning I sent my application to Southern. Online applications are a breeze! I dont know why I didnt try it sooner! lol My goal is to get down there by January. It's the only school I've applied to, and at the time of my application, I had no diploma or GED, no SATs or ACTs, and no backup plan. This is gonna be a God thing. I'm leaving school completely in His hands. I'm doing my part, getting the GED done and applying, but acceptance is up to Him. If you get a moment, say a prayer for me!
Once I get done with the GED stuff next week, I'll be working on unpacking from camp (yes, I still haven't unpacked!) and moving back into my closet of a bedroom. Then I get to begin cleaning out my junk. I have way too much junk in that little room. The last time I organized and rearranged my room I took out 2 full boxes of stuff, and I haven't missed any of it. They've just been sitting upstairs. They are back in my room now because there wasn't any other place for them. I need to go through those boxes and get rid of stuff I know I will never use again. Then I need to put away stuff I'll want for my future house someday, and stuff I'll want at school.
Ahhh, I come home from camp, and all of a sudden I feel like an adult. At times I like it, and other times it scares me. I've got a lot more to worry about, to figure out, to DO! And money is suddenly an important factor. I actually have money from working at camp still. I haven't spent it all yet! (yay for me!) That really is an accomplishment for me. Usually my paycheck is spent before I get it. Time to break old habits and start new ones!!
And then there's my sweetheart... He's on the road right now, headed to Southern. I miss him so much! He's on my mind and in my prayers a LOT lately. Please keep him in your prayers too! :-)
Well, I think I'm gonna head out now. I need to get moving. Got stuff to do!
Hugs!!
I'm sitting here, infront of my computer, with my second cup of coffee. I'm getting kinda antsy though... I really want to go do something. And I think I will soon. I need to make a run downtown. The mall is calling me!
After being on the run all summer, being home where things run a little slower is kinda hard. I need to find myself a job. I really want to apply at this one greenhouse/nursery in town. I've wanted to work there for a couple years, but just never got around to checking it out. Maybe I'll stop in there on my way downtown... Or maybe I'll wait until next week...
Oh, but next week I go for my GED exams! Say a prayer for me Tue., Wed., and Thur. nights, starting at 6pm. Those are the days I take the test. At the moment, I'm not really nervous, but I know the closer it gets, the more nervous I'll get!
Monday morning I sent my application to Southern. Online applications are a breeze! I dont know why I didnt try it sooner! lol My goal is to get down there by January. It's the only school I've applied to, and at the time of my application, I had no diploma or GED, no SATs or ACTs, and no backup plan. This is gonna be a God thing. I'm leaving school completely in His hands. I'm doing my part, getting the GED done and applying, but acceptance is up to Him. If you get a moment, say a prayer for me!
Once I get done with the GED stuff next week, I'll be working on unpacking from camp (yes, I still haven't unpacked!) and moving back into my closet of a bedroom. Then I get to begin cleaning out my junk. I have way too much junk in that little room. The last time I organized and rearranged my room I took out 2 full boxes of stuff, and I haven't missed any of it. They've just been sitting upstairs. They are back in my room now because there wasn't any other place for them. I need to go through those boxes and get rid of stuff I know I will never use again. Then I need to put away stuff I'll want for my future house someday, and stuff I'll want at school.
Ahhh, I come home from camp, and all of a sudden I feel like an adult. At times I like it, and other times it scares me. I've got a lot more to worry about, to figure out, to DO! And money is suddenly an important factor. I actually have money from working at camp still. I haven't spent it all yet! (yay for me!) That really is an accomplishment for me. Usually my paycheck is spent before I get it. Time to break old habits and start new ones!!
And then there's my sweetheart... He's on the road right now, headed to Southern. I miss him so much! He's on my mind and in my prayers a LOT lately. Please keep him in your prayers too! :-)
Well, I think I'm gonna head out now. I need to get moving. Got stuff to do!
Hugs!!
8/13/05
In shock......
Ok, wanna hear a sweet story?
My boyfriend is leaving for college on Tuesday. I haven't seen him since we both left camp a week ago. I didnt know if I was going to be able to see him again before he left. He's been working on putting a new engine in his truck all week, and if he wasn't far enough along by yesterday, he wasn't going to be able to come. Well, he called me last night, and he didn't get enough done, so he wasn't able to come. I was heartbroken! I missed him SO much! We talked on the phone for almost 3 hours, and while we were talking, he was talking to my parents online. They were giving him directions to my house, and to my church. They also gave him my Dad's cell number. They wanted to see him as much as I did! (well, almost as much)
So, this morning, I chose to stay home from church and sleep in. My parents let me, as long as I promised to show up at church for potluck. So, I slept until 10, then got up and ready to go. Little did I know, Jordan had called my Dad's cell just as Dad was getting to church.
When Jordan woke up this morning, he decided on the spot to come see me. So he called Dad to ask if it was ok. Of course it was! But no one told me he was coming! So there I was, eating lunch, talking with people I hadn't seen all summer, minding my own business... I happened to look up at the door just as Jordan walked in. I was so shocked to see him there... I couldnt even speak!
I'm still surprised. :-)
He drove 3 and a half hours this morning, just to see me, and only be able to stay for 4 hours, then drive back home again. So sweet!!!
We spent the afternoon posing, and not posing, for my Mom's camera. The picture above is one of the pictures taken. He and I both dressed up, just for fun, he in his suit from Thailand, and me in my banquet dress that I haven't worn for a year and a half. What we didnt plan was that his dress shirt was almost the same color blue as my dress. :-) We had a good time.
I'm gonna end this now... I'm still smiling from this afternoon. :-) I think I will be for a while.
I think tonight is a good night to watch a chick flick and eat the rest of my Starbucks Java Chip icecream. Good night!!
8/9/05
Home at last!
Hello! I'm finally home from camp. I got home around 5-ish on Sunday, and just now have the energy to post.
Camp was a wonderful experience this summer. I have a ton of pictures that I need to sort through and put into an album for you guys. I'll work on that soon. The pictures are visible evidence of all the memories I made over the summer, but they dont do any justice at all.
So many awesome people at camp, I'll try to name them!
Kellen, Scottie, Aryn, Erik, Lisa, James, Darren, Malorie, Hannah, Alycia, Yannick, Sara, Julienne, Juli, Shelley, Steven, Carmen, Laurel, Troy, Dunk, Nor, Klung, Erin, Jesse Ma., Jesse Mc., Josh, Raf, Abdiel, Keri Red, Keri Ray, Sheila, Stephanie, Derek, Robert, Ashleigh, Bec, Ron, Jenny.....Just to name a few...
And then there are 5 people I must mention, and thank them for making this the best summer of my life.
Kasandra, my sister! Of all the people at camp, I had no idea you and I would get so close. I'm so glad we did!! Miss you, pray I'll see you soon at southern, and give your beau a hug for me. I dont know him, but if he's dating you, he must be a keeper. ;-)
Adrianne, roomie. What a summer. I dont know how you put up with the crap load that you got. But you did! I couldnt have picked a better roommate for the summer. I miss you!! We need to get together again before you leave.
And now for my guys. :-)
Micah, you rock. The photo room just wasn't the same after you left. Or maybe it was just the compu crashing... ;-) Either way, you were missed greatly. Don't know if I'll see you next summer, but I sure hope so. Camp won't be the same without its resident ferrit. Plus, we need you to make us our no-bake cookies!!! Love you, man!
Vinny. What can I say? I remember the day I met you, we were handing mics to the crazy people in the play. Ahh, the memories! Starbucks, KRs, days off... heehee. You'd better stay in touch, man. RI isnt that far away. Consider this a hug from me to you!
Last, but certainly not least...
Jordan. I honestly don't know what to say. You and Vinny kept me sane all summer. When I needed a laugh, you were there. When I needed a shoulder to cry on, you were there. And when I just needed to sit and be quiet, you were there. How can I thank you for that? You are wonderful, fantastic, adorable, and completely awesome. I miss you. I love you.
I guess thats all I have to write right now. This was certainly a summer I will not soon forget.
Goodnight!
Camp was a wonderful experience this summer. I have a ton of pictures that I need to sort through and put into an album for you guys. I'll work on that soon. The pictures are visible evidence of all the memories I made over the summer, but they dont do any justice at all.
So many awesome people at camp, I'll try to name them!
Kellen, Scottie, Aryn, Erik, Lisa, James, Darren, Malorie, Hannah, Alycia, Yannick, Sara, Julienne, Juli, Shelley, Steven, Carmen, Laurel, Troy, Dunk, Nor, Klung, Erin, Jesse Ma., Jesse Mc., Josh, Raf, Abdiel, Keri Red, Keri Ray, Sheila, Stephanie, Derek, Robert, Ashleigh, Bec, Ron, Jenny.....Just to name a few...
And then there are 5 people I must mention, and thank them for making this the best summer of my life.
Kasandra, my sister! Of all the people at camp, I had no idea you and I would get so close. I'm so glad we did!! Miss you, pray I'll see you soon at southern, and give your beau a hug for me. I dont know him, but if he's dating you, he must be a keeper. ;-)
Adrianne, roomie. What a summer. I dont know how you put up with the crap load that you got. But you did! I couldnt have picked a better roommate for the summer. I miss you!! We need to get together again before you leave.
And now for my guys. :-)
Micah, you rock. The photo room just wasn't the same after you left. Or maybe it was just the compu crashing... ;-) Either way, you were missed greatly. Don't know if I'll see you next summer, but I sure hope so. Camp won't be the same without its resident ferrit. Plus, we need you to make us our no-bake cookies!!! Love you, man!
Vinny. What can I say? I remember the day I met you, we were handing mics to the crazy people in the play. Ahh, the memories! Starbucks, KRs, days off... heehee. You'd better stay in touch, man. RI isnt that far away. Consider this a hug from me to you!
Last, but certainly not least...
Jordan. I honestly don't know what to say. You and Vinny kept me sane all summer. When I needed a laugh, you were there. When I needed a shoulder to cry on, you were there. And when I just needed to sit and be quiet, you were there. How can I thank you for that? You are wonderful, fantastic, adorable, and completely awesome. I miss you. I love you.
I guess thats all I have to write right now. This was certainly a summer I will not soon forget.
Goodnight!
7/28/05
I'm not dead!
I know, I know, it's been forever since I've written. I apologize. Life has been incredibly busy here at camp. Yep, still at camp! And will be for another week and a half, almost. I can't believe the summer is that close to being over... It was hard work, but I've enjoyed almost every minute of it, and the weeks just flew by! It's already Thursday!
Right now we are in the middle of the first week of Family Camp.Today we are putting on a carnival! It sounds like fun, and it will be, but I still have so much work to do!! I'm the programming assistant for this week. It's my job to make sure all our programs and worships run smoothly and on time. It can be a very stressful job, but the end result is rewarding; knowing the program ran well, and I had a hand in it. It makes me look good. hahah
I bought a new camera recently. And I love it! I've had so much fun going around taking pictures this summer. I have so many between this camera, and my parent's camera... more than last year, I think.
The staff here at camp have been awesome this year, I'm gonna be SO SAD when it's time to leave. This weekend I have the opportunity to go to NYC with a group of staff, and I am so excited! We are taking our 3 Thai staff members, our 5 Aussie staff members, and then three of us Americans. :-) I can't wait! We leave Saturday night.
well, I guess that's all for now. I should get going and find some sort of work to do...
Love you all!
Right now we are in the middle of the first week of Family Camp.Today we are putting on a carnival! It sounds like fun, and it will be, but I still have so much work to do!! I'm the programming assistant for this week. It's my job to make sure all our programs and worships run smoothly and on time. It can be a very stressful job, but the end result is rewarding; knowing the program ran well, and I had a hand in it. It makes me look good. hahah
I bought a new camera recently. And I love it! I've had so much fun going around taking pictures this summer. I have so many between this camera, and my parent's camera... more than last year, I think.
The staff here at camp have been awesome this year, I'm gonna be SO SAD when it's time to leave. This weekend I have the opportunity to go to NYC with a group of staff, and I am so excited! We are taking our 3 Thai staff members, our 5 Aussie staff members, and then three of us Americans. :-) I can't wait! We leave Saturday night.
well, I guess that's all for now. I should get going and find some sort of work to do...
Love you all!
6/21/05
Another post, WOW!!!
Hey, I bet you didnt think you'd hear from me again so soon! But I have some free time, surprizingly, so here I am!
Another long day today... But it was fun. More archery, and then I raced RC cars with "the guys" lol it was fun... One person has a fetish with running over my feet.
Tomorrow is my day off. I can't wait! I'm skipping breakfast, and just sleeping in until I wake up. ahhh. Hopefully Mom will bring me breakfast when she comes to see me. And coffeeeeeeeeee..... ahhhhhh
Ok, I'm gonna get going for now. Love you all bunches! Hope to hear from you soon!! Some of you have my address here at camp, WRITE ME!!
Hugs!
Another long day today... But it was fun. More archery, and then I raced RC cars with "the guys" lol it was fun... One person has a fetish with running over my feet.
Tomorrow is my day off. I can't wait! I'm skipping breakfast, and just sleeping in until I wake up. ahhh. Hopefully Mom will bring me breakfast when she comes to see me. And coffeeeeeeeeee..... ahhhhhh
Ok, I'm gonna get going for now. Love you all bunches! Hope to hear from you soon!! Some of you have my address here at camp, WRITE ME!!
Hugs!
6/20/05
A few spare minutes!!!
Hello my friends! I actually have a few minutes to write! Wow!
Camp is going well. It's been busy, and stressful at times, but fun. I'm really enjoying being here.
I am a cabin counselor, meaning I sleep in the cabin (well, in the counselor's quarters) with my kids. This week I dont have any kids though, and I'm kinda glad. I still need some time to get into the swing of this counselor thing.
Well, breakfast is being served, so I'm gonna head up to the cafe. I dont know when I'll be able to post again, but hopefully this will hold you over until then.
Much love!
Camp is going well. It's been busy, and stressful at times, but fun. I'm really enjoying being here.
I am a cabin counselor, meaning I sleep in the cabin (well, in the counselor's quarters) with my kids. This week I dont have any kids though, and I'm kinda glad. I still need some time to get into the swing of this counselor thing.
Well, breakfast is being served, so I'm gonna head up to the cafe. I dont know when I'll be able to post again, but hopefully this will hold you over until then.
Much love!
6/8/05
Today be the day...
I leave for camp in about 9 hours. I'm excited, but kinda guilty too... I can't wait to get there, but I feel bad about rushing out on my family. But I have to do this. I can't wait to get there, and just be able to take a deep breath. ahhh...
So yeah, I'm not going to stay long here. I've got stuff to do, and places to go (last minute shopping) so I can be ready to leave. Please feel free to email me LOT'S while I'm gone, ok? And some of you have the address for the camp, so write to me! I probably won't have the time to write back, but letters keep me going. Give me energy. :-)
Well, I'm gonna go try to wake up. I'm ony up this early to see my Dad before he leaves for work and I leave for camp. I could NOT leave without seeing him. (Love you Daddy!)
ttfn
So yeah, I'm not going to stay long here. I've got stuff to do, and places to go (last minute shopping) so I can be ready to leave. Please feel free to email me LOT'S while I'm gone, ok? And some of you have the address for the camp, so write to me! I probably won't have the time to write back, but letters keep me going. Give me energy. :-)
Well, I'm gonna go try to wake up. I'm ony up this early to see my Dad before he leaves for work and I leave for camp. I could NOT leave without seeing him. (Love you Daddy!)
ttfn
6/6/05
Almost time for camp...
Hey folks. It's the week I leave for camp! I haven't figured out what day I'm going down, I think I'd like to go down Wednesday evening, but I'm not sure... If I dont go down Wednesday, then I will go down Thursday. Gotta still talk to Dad about that, see what he thinks. Now that camp is so close, I'm anxious to get there and start my summer. Life here has gotten so confusing, especially concerning one person, I just need a break from seeing them. I need some time to relax and not always be thinking something. Yeah, anyways...
I'm hoping this is going to be a good summer. I dont see why it wouldnt be, but there's always something that could happen. I dont have a boyfriend this year though, which will make things a lot easier. Last summer ended with a breakup, so that wasn't easy. This summer I'm taking a break from dating, so I shouldnt have that problem again. In theory, anyways.
I'm trying to figure out the most economical way to pack. Not easy. I have some stuff packed already, but I'll probably end up starting all over again. And I'll most likely pack everything I wont need and nothing I will need. Such is life. lol Maybe I'll make a list. I always have to when I pack for a weekend, maybe I should for a whole summer... hmmm I'll keep thinking about that.
Man, I'm tired. I think this week is going to be the most stressful for me. Another reason I want to get to camp, I can relax for a couple of days before it gets busy... And if I go down early, I can get settled in before the mad rush on Friday. That will be nice. Gonna have to get as much sleep as I can this week, cause I know I wont get as much as I'm used to once I'm at camp. But thats ok, it's part of the fun.
I suppose I should go work on packing again. I'll try to post more this week, and I definatly will before I leave. I dont know how the summer is gonna go for posting, but I'll try to keep up. If not, I'll try to fill you all in once I'm home again for good.
Love ya!
I'm hoping this is going to be a good summer. I dont see why it wouldnt be, but there's always something that could happen. I dont have a boyfriend this year though, which will make things a lot easier. Last summer ended with a breakup, so that wasn't easy. This summer I'm taking a break from dating, so I shouldnt have that problem again. In theory, anyways.
I'm trying to figure out the most economical way to pack. Not easy. I have some stuff packed already, but I'll probably end up starting all over again. And I'll most likely pack everything I wont need and nothing I will need. Such is life. lol Maybe I'll make a list. I always have to when I pack for a weekend, maybe I should for a whole summer... hmmm I'll keep thinking about that.
Man, I'm tired. I think this week is going to be the most stressful for me. Another reason I want to get to camp, I can relax for a couple of days before it gets busy... And if I go down early, I can get settled in before the mad rush on Friday. That will be nice. Gonna have to get as much sleep as I can this week, cause I know I wont get as much as I'm used to once I'm at camp. But thats ok, it's part of the fun.
I suppose I should go work on packing again. I'll try to post more this week, and I definatly will before I leave. I dont know how the summer is gonna go for posting, but I'll try to keep up. If not, I'll try to fill you all in once I'm home again for good.
Love ya!
6/3/05
Time to vent a little? Maybe...
Yeah, so, I'm feeling gray.
Life is overwhelming, it really is. Just when you think everything is under control, BAM, something hits and everything kind of explodes into a million peices.
Or maybe, everything is already on the verge of exploding, and just when something tiny bumps it, then everything falls apart.
Or maybe both.
Yeah, as you have probably figured out, I'm a little frustrated with my life right now. I'm sick and tired of my plans changing for one reason or another. I wish I could just depend on something. Right now, I can't depend on anything! I'm having issues with trusting people, even though things are OK with the person who caused that I'm still having problems. I feel like I'm on the brink of being depressed, if not already there, thanks to school issues, relationship issues, and spiritual issues. I'm a mess! (I put on a good front, dont I?) I don't want to talk about this with anyone, and I really don't know why. I just dont want to. I'm not the one who supposed to have problems. I'm the one who helps other people. Ok that doesnt sound right... I'm the one who's supposed to be the support, thats what I love doing. I shouldn't need to be supported. Nah thats not quite right either. Oh well. Forget it.
If I dont think about my life too hard, I'm fine. All hunky dory. I just need to keep busy.
Yeah, if you know me personally and read this, don't worry. I'm fine. Just dont ask me about school, and dont ask me if I have a boyfriend, and we'll be all set!
Going to bed now, long day tomorrow...
Life is overwhelming, it really is. Just when you think everything is under control, BAM, something hits and everything kind of explodes into a million peices.
Or maybe, everything is already on the verge of exploding, and just when something tiny bumps it, then everything falls apart.
Or maybe both.
Yeah, as you have probably figured out, I'm a little frustrated with my life right now. I'm sick and tired of my plans changing for one reason or another. I wish I could just depend on something. Right now, I can't depend on anything! I'm having issues with trusting people, even though things are OK with the person who caused that I'm still having problems. I feel like I'm on the brink of being depressed, if not already there, thanks to school issues, relationship issues, and spiritual issues. I'm a mess! (I put on a good front, dont I?) I don't want to talk about this with anyone, and I really don't know why. I just dont want to. I'm not the one who supposed to have problems. I'm the one who helps other people. Ok that doesnt sound right... I'm the one who's supposed to be the support, thats what I love doing. I shouldn't need to be supported. Nah thats not quite right either. Oh well. Forget it.
If I dont think about my life too hard, I'm fine. All hunky dory. I just need to keep busy.
Yeah, if you know me personally and read this, don't worry. I'm fine. Just dont ask me about school, and dont ask me if I have a boyfriend, and we'll be all set!
Going to bed now, long day tomorrow...
6/1/05
A Simple Friend / A Real Friend
I just got this through my email. I know we've all seen this before, but it's soo good, I'm posting it here. Which friend are you?
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A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest. A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.
A simple friend has never seen you cry. A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.
A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names. A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.
A simple friend brings a bottle of wine (or Sprite!) to your party. A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.
A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed. A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.
A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems. A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.
A simple friend wonders about your romantic history. A real friend could blackmail you with it.
A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument. A real friend calls you after you had a fight.
A simple friend expects you to always be there for them. A real friend expects to always be there for you!
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A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest. A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.
A simple friend has never seen you cry. A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.
A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names. A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.
A simple friend brings a bottle of wine (or Sprite!) to your party. A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.
A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed. A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.
A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems. A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.
A simple friend wonders about your romantic history. A real friend could blackmail you with it.
A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument. A real friend calls you after you had a fight.
A simple friend expects you to always be there for them. A real friend expects to always be there for you!
HAPPY JUNE!!!
It's June!! Yay! And what a gorgeous day it is too! What a way to bring in the month.
But sadly, it was also my last day at the office. :-( I loved working there, the people were fantastic!! They even had a "last day of work" mini-party for me! I got there, and I was handed a card, and told to go downstairs, where they had icecream waiting! lol Everyone had already gotten into it, since they didnt really have time to wait for me, but it was still a "sweet" gesture! I talked to my boss about working there again in the fall, after camp, and he said "We'll talk." I'm sure I'll be able to. I'd rather work there than a McDonalds or a Shaws. Nothing against those places, mind you, I just dont think I'd be able to stand it for very long at all.
I'm hopfully going down to the Tech tomorrow afternoon... still haven't made it down there yet. Grr... Oh well. I'm kinda disappointed that I won't be about away to college this fall (for those who didnt know yet) but I think it will be a good thing. I'm just hoping I can get a different bedroom before too long... I can't do another year in this matchbox of a room... Ahh, the dreams I have...
Oh, Jack, if I'm staying home, you had better come see me more often!! lol
I'm gonna have a busy 9 days... Tomorrow we are headed downtown to meet a friend of Moms, then I think I'm going to pick up Amber tomorrow night, and Friday is Aaron's birthday (He's gonna be 18!! *gasp*) Then Sabbath is gonna be BUSY!! Sunday we're going to Maine for the PTA graduation. (Alyssa, I hope you'll still be here!) And then all of next week will be getting ready, packing, and buying any last minute stuff for camp, which starts for me on the 10th!
Once camp starts, I don't know how often I'll be able to post, but we'll see.
I should go now and see what there is for supper... I'm hungry!
Tata, my friends!
But sadly, it was also my last day at the office. :-( I loved working there, the people were fantastic!! They even had a "last day of work" mini-party for me! I got there, and I was handed a card, and told to go downstairs, where they had icecream waiting! lol Everyone had already gotten into it, since they didnt really have time to wait for me, but it was still a "sweet" gesture! I talked to my boss about working there again in the fall, after camp, and he said "We'll talk." I'm sure I'll be able to. I'd rather work there than a McDonalds or a Shaws. Nothing against those places, mind you, I just dont think I'd be able to stand it for very long at all.
I'm hopfully going down to the Tech tomorrow afternoon... still haven't made it down there yet. Grr... Oh well. I'm kinda disappointed that I won't be about away to college this fall (for those who didnt know yet) but I think it will be a good thing. I'm just hoping I can get a different bedroom before too long... I can't do another year in this matchbox of a room... Ahh, the dreams I have...
Oh, Jack, if I'm staying home, you had better come see me more often!! lol
I'm gonna have a busy 9 days... Tomorrow we are headed downtown to meet a friend of Moms, then I think I'm going to pick up Amber tomorrow night, and Friday is Aaron's birthday (He's gonna be 18!! *gasp*) Then Sabbath is gonna be BUSY!! Sunday we're going to Maine for the PTA graduation. (Alyssa, I hope you'll still be here!) And then all of next week will be getting ready, packing, and buying any last minute stuff for camp, which starts for me on the 10th!
Once camp starts, I don't know how often I'll be able to post, but we'll see.
I should go now and see what there is for supper... I'm hungry!
Tata, my friends!
5/26/05
*untitled*
Hello my friends.
It is raining. Still. I think I'm getting moldy.
Sorry I haven't written in a while, I've had a lot on my mind, and didnt feel like posting. But I think I'm better now!
I'm sitting here, with my mocha beside me (how many times have we seen that?) thinking about a lot of things... I'm not sure how much I want to type here though. Hmmm...
Camp is coming in two short weeks...I am not even ready yet. I've got shopping to do! My last paychecks from the office are going towards stuff for camp. My list isnt that long, but its things I'm not gonna be able to do without.
Oh, I need to set up a checking acct soon... I've got my savings, but that's not always convenient.
I have one week of work left at the office, and I'm gonna miss it there! I think I'm going to talk to my boss about working there again after camp, maybe actually answer telephones this time. heehee I really don't mind the work there. It's all filing, which doesnt take too much brain power. I just have to know my ABCs!
So, yesterday evening I was a wreck. The weight of school finally got me. My GED has been pushed back to August. I haven't sent in my applications for college yet because I dont have the money for the fees. And I dont have time to get all of that done before camp.
Hmm, I don't think I want to get into the rest of that right now... I need to go hop through the shower.
Bye!
It is raining. Still. I think I'm getting moldy.
Sorry I haven't written in a while, I've had a lot on my mind, and didnt feel like posting. But I think I'm better now!
I'm sitting here, with my mocha beside me (how many times have we seen that?) thinking about a lot of things... I'm not sure how much I want to type here though. Hmmm...
Camp is coming in two short weeks...I am not even ready yet. I've got shopping to do! My last paychecks from the office are going towards stuff for camp. My list isnt that long, but its things I'm not gonna be able to do without.
Oh, I need to set up a checking acct soon... I've got my savings, but that's not always convenient.
I have one week of work left at the office, and I'm gonna miss it there! I think I'm going to talk to my boss about working there again after camp, maybe actually answer telephones this time. heehee I really don't mind the work there. It's all filing, which doesnt take too much brain power. I just have to know my ABCs!
So, yesterday evening I was a wreck. The weight of school finally got me. My GED has been pushed back to August. I haven't sent in my applications for college yet because I dont have the money for the fees. And I dont have time to get all of that done before camp.
Hmm, I don't think I want to get into the rest of that right now... I need to go hop through the shower.
Bye!
5/19/05
Woohoo!!
Wow, I'm tired! haha!
Star Wars last night was... good! I won't write my thoughts just yet, I'll give you all a chance to see it first. Then you can form your own opinion. :-)
Tomorrow morning we leave for the prayer retreat! YEAH! I've been waiting for this for a LONG TIME! I'm trying to get my friend Adrianne to go, but it's REALLY last minute, so that probably won't work. But hey, I can try! lol
I've got a lot of driving to do tomorrow. I'm hoping to get us outta here by 9-30-ish. That's the plan anyways. heehee. Let's see... 3 and 1/2 hours at least to get there... I wonder how many CDs I can go through in that time... Lets find out! haha
Well, I gotta go peel potatoes. I probably won't have time to post before I leave tomorrow, so, until the next time I write, have a wonderful weekend!!
God Bless!
Star Wars last night was... good! I won't write my thoughts just yet, I'll give you all a chance to see it first. Then you can form your own opinion. :-)
Tomorrow morning we leave for the prayer retreat! YEAH! I've been waiting for this for a LONG TIME! I'm trying to get my friend Adrianne to go, but it's REALLY last minute, so that probably won't work. But hey, I can try! lol
I've got a lot of driving to do tomorrow. I'm hoping to get us outta here by 9-30-ish. That's the plan anyways. heehee. Let's see... 3 and 1/2 hours at least to get there... I wonder how many CDs I can go through in that time... Lets find out! haha
Well, I gotta go peel potatoes. I probably won't have time to post before I leave tomorrow, so, until the next time I write, have a wonderful weekend!!
God Bless!
5/18/05
Star Wars!!
Can you hear it? It's the Star Wars theme!!!
Tonight I do see the movie, with Aaron, Jake, and Mike. Gonna be a blast!!
Gotta run for now, but I'll post, tomorrow probably, all about the movie.
Tootles!
Tonight I do see the movie, with Aaron, Jake, and Mike. Gonna be a blast!!
Gotta run for now, but I'll post, tomorrow probably, all about the movie.
Tootles!
5/17/05
Verses!
I forgot to post these the other night!!
Here are the verses I pulled out the other day. Enjoy!
*Judd, check these out, you'll understand better than anyone why I picked them! heehee*
All verses are NIV unless specified.
Genesis 24:12-27 The Message (MSG)
1 Samuel 16:7
Psalm 1:1-3
Psalm 15
Psalm 18:20-24 MSG
Psalm 20:1, 4
Psalm 25:16
Psalm 27:14
Psalm 37:4
Psalm 42:5 MSG
Psalm 119:82, 84, 109, 116
Song of Songs 3:5
Jeremiah 29:11
Romans 12:9-21 NIV & MSG
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
Ephesians 5:22-33 MSG
Philippians 4:8, 19
1 Timothy 4:12
1 Timothy 6:11
2 Timothy 1:12
2 Timothy 2:22
Hebrews 11:1
James 1:17
There ya go! Those are the verses that have a special significance to me concerning relationships. They may hold a different significance to you. Hope they at least touched your heart!
TTFN, Ta ta for now!
Here are the verses I pulled out the other day. Enjoy!
*Judd, check these out, you'll understand better than anyone why I picked them! heehee*
All verses are NIV unless specified.
Genesis 24:12-27 The Message (MSG)
1 Samuel 16:7
Psalm 1:1-3
Psalm 15
Psalm 18:20-24 MSG
Psalm 20:1, 4
Psalm 25:16
Psalm 27:14
Psalm 37:4
Psalm 42:5 MSG
Psalm 119:82, 84, 109, 116
Song of Songs 3:5
Jeremiah 29:11
Romans 12:9-21 NIV & MSG
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
Ephesians 5:22-33 MSG
Philippians 4:8, 19
1 Timothy 4:12
1 Timothy 6:11
2 Timothy 1:12
2 Timothy 2:22
Hebrews 11:1
James 1:17
There ya go! Those are the verses that have a special significance to me concerning relationships. They may hold a different significance to you. Hope they at least touched your heart!
TTFN, Ta ta for now!
5/15/05
5/13/05
Dun Dun Dun
Hey look, I'm GREEN!! hahahaha
How are yall doin'? I think I'm finally over being sick, for the most part. I can sing again! I drove my brother nuts on the way home from the Bible study last night, I turned on my country radio station, and was singing along. He didnt like it much. The music, not my singing. Can you believe he doesnt like country music? Its unbelievable! Who could NOT like country music?? lol
I guess I'll keep him though, for Amber's sake. haha!
Prayer Retreat is in a week!!! YEAH! I am SO HAPPY!!! I found out last night at the study that there are a LOT of people from my church going. We're gonna be the Concord Contingent! We'll cordon off a part of the lodge just for Concord people. lol We'll take up half the meeting house!! hahahaha Well, Ok, maybe I'm exadurrating a little bit... But there will be many of us! The poor church back home is gonna be empty next weekend. Between the Prayer Retreat and the Pathfinders all being gone somewhere... wow.
So, I was thinking the other night, and reading some in my Bible, and I came across some cool stuff. With all thats been happening lately in my dating life, I've been thinking a lot about relationships and being single and letting God direct that part of my life. The other night I found some verses that really help with that. Most of them are just verses about God leading in your life, but they can apply to this too. I'll post them here later today.
Mom and Sam and Aaron are going out today, groceries! So the twins and I are gonna have some fun girl time here....after chores are done, of course. But since I'm in charge, even chores will be fun! I mean, how can you not have fun doing dishes when you have Superchick or Hawk Nelson or BarlowGirl playing LOUDLY over the stereo?! Maybe I'll even put in some Brad Paisley or Rascall Flatts! hahahaha I will convert this family to country music someday!
Ok, I need to get going for now. Need to take my shower and start my day. I've spent the last couple hours since I woke up reading. I had to finish my book so I can move onto the next one! (Just finished book 3 in a 5 book series.) I plan on starting the next book today...sometime... :-)
Going now!
Hugs!
How are yall doin'? I think I'm finally over being sick, for the most part. I can sing again! I drove my brother nuts on the way home from the Bible study last night, I turned on my country radio station, and was singing along. He didnt like it much. The music, not my singing. Can you believe he doesnt like country music? Its unbelievable! Who could NOT like country music?? lol
I guess I'll keep him though, for Amber's sake. haha!
Prayer Retreat is in a week!!! YEAH! I am SO HAPPY!!! I found out last night at the study that there are a LOT of people from my church going. We're gonna be the Concord Contingent! We'll cordon off a part of the lodge just for Concord people. lol We'll take up half the meeting house!! hahahaha Well, Ok, maybe I'm exadurrating a little bit... But there will be many of us! The poor church back home is gonna be empty next weekend. Between the Prayer Retreat and the Pathfinders all being gone somewhere... wow.
So, I was thinking the other night, and reading some in my Bible, and I came across some cool stuff. With all thats been happening lately in my dating life, I've been thinking a lot about relationships and being single and letting God direct that part of my life. The other night I found some verses that really help with that. Most of them are just verses about God leading in your life, but they can apply to this too. I'll post them here later today.
Mom and Sam and Aaron are going out today, groceries! So the twins and I are gonna have some fun girl time here....after chores are done, of course. But since I'm in charge, even chores will be fun! I mean, how can you not have fun doing dishes when you have Superchick or Hawk Nelson or BarlowGirl playing LOUDLY over the stereo?! Maybe I'll even put in some Brad Paisley or Rascall Flatts! hahahaha I will convert this family to country music someday!
Ok, I need to get going for now. Need to take my shower and start my day. I've spent the last couple hours since I woke up reading. I had to finish my book so I can move onto the next one! (Just finished book 3 in a 5 book series.) I plan on starting the next book today...sometime... :-)
Going now!
Hugs!
5/10/05
I'm back
Hello my friends!
I truly apologise for not writing more. I've had a ton of stuff on my mind, and haven't really felt like sitting down to write. But I'm here now, so watch out! :-)
So lets see, whats been happening... Well, I think I mentioned I was sick... but I dont remember... so, Guess what?! I was sick ALL last week! Like really sick, spent all day in bed, achy all over, unable to breathe, THAT kind of sick! Not fun! But I'm all set now... just still have the stuffy/runny nose thing, and my voice hasn't come back yet. I was told by my loving cousin this weekend that I sounded like I've been smoking. haha (the same cousin who used to call me Ashtray)
My brother just came in, fresh out of the shower, and he looks like one of those really shaggy dogs. lol I guess he's waiting for a haircut.
Oh, I got my new glasses last week! They're dark green, but look black sometimes. I love them so much! I got prescription sunglasses too, which are totally cool. I'm happy. :-)
Prayer Retreat is coming up in a week and a half!!! May 20-22!! I am SO excited... I need it so much! With all the stuff I've been dealing with, that retreat will be more like a vacation! One of the highlights is the Golden Silence, two full hours of no speaking. Everyone goes off on their own, they can do what they want, but it must be silent. The last few times, I've spent the time with Jeremy, who cannot stay that quiet for that long. :-P (You know I'm right, Jeremy!) So this time I am making sure I'm alone. Just me, my blanket, my Bible, and my notebook. I know exactly where I'm gonna go too... but I'm not gonna say where, because then people will follow me there! muahaha
Wow, I was just handed a check for $50!
Man, I hope my voice comes back to normal SOON! I'm listening to my country station, and I wanna sing, but I cant!:'-( Thats been the hardest part about being sick, I can't sing. I just need to be able to sing for the retreat. If I can't sing there, I will be SO man! haha
Well, I suppose I should get going. I have an hour before I need to go to work...less actually, cause I need time to stop at the bank, get gas, and maybe get a coolata. heehee
Hugs to everyone!
I truly apologise for not writing more. I've had a ton of stuff on my mind, and haven't really felt like sitting down to write. But I'm here now, so watch out! :-)
So lets see, whats been happening... Well, I think I mentioned I was sick... but I dont remember... so, Guess what?! I was sick ALL last week! Like really sick, spent all day in bed, achy all over, unable to breathe, THAT kind of sick! Not fun! But I'm all set now... just still have the stuffy/runny nose thing, and my voice hasn't come back yet. I was told by my loving cousin this weekend that I sounded like I've been smoking. haha (the same cousin who used to call me Ashtray)
My brother just came in, fresh out of the shower, and he looks like one of those really shaggy dogs. lol I guess he's waiting for a haircut.
Oh, I got my new glasses last week! They're dark green, but look black sometimes. I love them so much! I got prescription sunglasses too, which are totally cool. I'm happy. :-)
Prayer Retreat is coming up in a week and a half!!! May 20-22!! I am SO excited... I need it so much! With all the stuff I've been dealing with, that retreat will be more like a vacation! One of the highlights is the Golden Silence, two full hours of no speaking. Everyone goes off on their own, they can do what they want, but it must be silent. The last few times, I've spent the time with Jeremy, who cannot stay that quiet for that long. :-P (You know I'm right, Jeremy!) So this time I am making sure I'm alone. Just me, my blanket, my Bible, and my notebook. I know exactly where I'm gonna go too... but I'm not gonna say where, because then people will follow me there! muahaha
Wow, I was just handed a check for $50!
Man, I hope my voice comes back to normal SOON! I'm listening to my country station, and I wanna sing, but I cant!:'-( Thats been the hardest part about being sick, I can't sing. I just need to be able to sing for the retreat. If I can't sing there, I will be SO man! haha
Well, I suppose I should get going. I have an hour before I need to go to work...less actually, cause I need time to stop at the bank, get gas, and maybe get a coolata. heehee
Hugs to everyone!
5/6/05
Oh my!
It's been a while since I've written! Yikes! I'm slacking off!! :-( But I have good reason this time, I was sick in bed all week! Yucky stuff... But I'm better now, yay!
I really can't write long, headed to bed soon, and I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow, but I felt bad about not writing for a while... so here I am!
And there I go!
Goodnight!
I really can't write long, headed to bed soon, and I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow, but I felt bad about not writing for a while... so here I am!
And there I go!
Goodnight!
4/30/05
Hi!
Hey!
Just thought I'd write before I started considering going to bed for the night. ;-)
I mean... uh... if my parents are reading this, before I DO go to bed for the night!
Actually, I should be going to bed soon anyways, been up late so many nights this week... thanks to SOMEONE!! hahahaha
Tomorrow I get to go visit another cemetary! I can't wait! I enjoy them so much! The history that you can find in them...
Sometimes when I see a particularly eloquent headstone I wonder what kind of person they really were. Did they truly live up to the inscription? Or was their family just trying to be polite one last time? And what about all the stones for babies? Those make me so sad... children who die before they are even a year old. I wonder if they were from a big family, or if they were the only child ever born to their parents. Were they the oldest? the youngest? Or were they unwanted? There are so many questions around each headstone. You could create wonderful lives for the person, or they could be a dastardly villian! It's such a "scope for the imagination!" to quote Anne Shirley.
Ok! I'm done! :-D
Time to go for the night. I want to do some reading, and maybe some writing, before I go to bed. And maybe I'll catch some interesting people online. We'll see how things go. I just need to keep in mind that I can't sleep in tomorrow... blah...
G'night!
Just thought I'd write before I started considering going to bed for the night. ;-)
I mean... uh... if my parents are reading this, before I DO go to bed for the night!
Actually, I should be going to bed soon anyways, been up late so many nights this week... thanks to SOMEONE!! hahahaha
Tomorrow I get to go visit another cemetary! I can't wait! I enjoy them so much! The history that you can find in them...
Sometimes when I see a particularly eloquent headstone I wonder what kind of person they really were. Did they truly live up to the inscription? Or was their family just trying to be polite one last time? And what about all the stones for babies? Those make me so sad... children who die before they are even a year old. I wonder if they were from a big family, or if they were the only child ever born to their parents. Were they the oldest? the youngest? Or were they unwanted? There are so many questions around each headstone. You could create wonderful lives for the person, or they could be a dastardly villian! It's such a "scope for the imagination!" to quote Anne Shirley.
Ok! I'm done! :-D
Time to go for the night. I want to do some reading, and maybe some writing, before I go to bed. And maybe I'll catch some interesting people online. We'll see how things go. I just need to keep in mind that I can't sleep in tomorrow... blah...
G'night!
4/28/05
Website updated!
Yes, I updated my website!... well... a part of it. I put up some new poetry!
Check out the site here.
Maybe I'll update some more stuff tonight too... Who knows.
Tootles!
Check out the site here.
Maybe I'll update some more stuff tonight too... Who knows.
Tootles!
4/26/05
More Lyrics
Ok, here's another song that has wormed its way into my heart. heehee
Beauty From Pain ~ Superchic[k]
The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know I'm alive
But I feel like I've died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dream ran my sand through the fists that I made
I try to keep warm but I just grow colder
I feel like I'm slipping away
After all this has passed
I will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
My whole world is the pain inside me
The best I can do is just get through the day
When like before is only a memory
I wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how You've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames
After all this has passed
I will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
Here I am at the end of me
Trying to hold to what I can't see
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to your promise there will be a dawn
After all this has passed
I will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
Beauty From Pain ~ Superchic[k]
The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know I'm alive
But I feel like I've died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dream ran my sand through the fists that I made
I try to keep warm but I just grow colder
I feel like I'm slipping away
After all this has passed
I will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
My whole world is the pain inside me
The best I can do is just get through the day
When like before is only a memory
I wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how You've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames
After all this has passed
I will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
Here I am at the end of me
Trying to hold to what I can't see
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to your promise there will be a dawn
After all this has passed
I will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
4/25/05
Just for fun...
I found this on a friends journal. I was curious about it, so I tried it. Those who know me well, how close is this to me? :-)
Your Life Path Number Is 11 |
11 Your life path is greatly associated with spiritual awareness. As one of the two master numbers, the 11 yields understanding and knowledge beyond the grasp of others. The attitude toward life of those possessing this Life Path is somewhat extreme; extremely intuitive, avant-garde, idealistic, visionary, and cultured. These extremes make you an interesting, if unusual person, with much to offer society. The Life Path 11 person is deep-thinking, and you are no doubt interested in understanding many of life's mysteries and more intriguing facets. Your inventive mind and broad-minded views will permit you to succeed in life in any number of ventures. You can best serve society, however, in those endeavors utilizing your skills of counseling and guidance. Much of your idealism is people oriented and quite humanitarian in nature. You expect a great deal of yourself and of those to whom you are close. On the negative side, there is a lot of nervous tension associated with the 11 life path, and you can be a difficult person to deal with because of this. For this reason, relationships, at times, can be difficult. This is a Life Path that seems to feature broad mood swings between the elation and depression. You are likely to have trouble making decisions and getting your life in gear, so to speak. There is a tendency for the 11 to harbor feelings of uneasiness, and dissatisfaction with accomplishments and personal progress in life. Your grandiose schemes usually make sense, but you can get off the track and they can be very impractical. You have a very distinct side that lacks common sense, and you are quite often unable to distinguish between fantasy and reality. In this regard, you are perhaps more of a dreamer than a doer. When you do get on target, your ideas seem to have been inspired on high. Perhaps you are not a leader, but you are a visionary and a very talented idea person. |
Ketchup!
Hi Folks!
Wow, it's been a while since I last posted! I need to work on that... But ya know, sometimes life gets the better of you, and leaves you with either no free time, or no inspiration. Kinda stinks. Oh well, I'm here now!
Let's see, to catch you all up on whats been happening with me...
Well, last weekend I went to visit my old church, and spent the weekend with some old friends. That was fun! Cass and Amanda, we need to get together sometime before life gets too busy!
Then I worked during the week.
Wednesday I pick up Amber, Aaron's girlfriend. It is never boring with her around! :-) On the way home, we stopped in to see Mike at Subway. Luckly we happened to come in during a slow point, and we were able to talk for a while before Mike had to go back to work.
And then, hmm... I was sorta sick over the weekend, so I stayed home from church. Saturday night I went to Adah's for her family's seder. That was fun. Jewish food is SOOO yummy!!! I may have to sneak out of school next year to come up for it. heehee
Yesterday evening, I went over to Mike's and we watched Electra. (such a guy movie. lol) Its always fun to go over there, surrounded by guys. :-) I'm almost "one of the guys"..... Andrew was comfortable enough to burp in my ear a couple of times. I think I either have to keep up with them, or get really girly so they treat me like a lady..... I think I'd prefer the former! hahaha! I hope they can teach me a few things about archery because.....
You are looking at Camp Winnekeag's new Archery Instructor! Yup, along with one of the guys from camp, I am teaching something I know nothing about... yet. I guess camp is gonna pay for my training though, which is good, cause I certainly cant afford it!
Well, I think thats all for now!
Tootles my friends!
Wow, it's been a while since I last posted! I need to work on that... But ya know, sometimes life gets the better of you, and leaves you with either no free time, or no inspiration. Kinda stinks. Oh well, I'm here now!
Let's see, to catch you all up on whats been happening with me...
Well, last weekend I went to visit my old church, and spent the weekend with some old friends. That was fun! Cass and Amanda, we need to get together sometime before life gets too busy!
Then I worked during the week.
Wednesday I pick up Amber, Aaron's girlfriend. It is never boring with her around! :-) On the way home, we stopped in to see Mike at Subway. Luckly we happened to come in during a slow point, and we were able to talk for a while before Mike had to go back to work.
And then, hmm... I was sorta sick over the weekend, so I stayed home from church. Saturday night I went to Adah's for her family's seder. That was fun. Jewish food is SOOO yummy!!! I may have to sneak out of school next year to come up for it. heehee
Yesterday evening, I went over to Mike's and we watched Electra. (such a guy movie. lol) Its always fun to go over there, surrounded by guys. :-) I'm almost "one of the guys"..... Andrew was comfortable enough to burp in my ear a couple of times. I think I either have to keep up with them, or get really girly so they treat me like a lady..... I think I'd prefer the former! hahaha! I hope they can teach me a few things about archery because.....
You are looking at Camp Winnekeag's new Archery Instructor! Yup, along with one of the guys from camp, I am teaching something I know nothing about... yet. I guess camp is gonna pay for my training though, which is good, cause I certainly cant afford it!
Well, I think thats all for now!
Tootles my friends!
4/18/05
Hope!
Lamentations 3:19-33 -
"19I'll never forget the trouble, the utter lostness,
the taste of ashes, the poison I've swallowed.
20I remember it all--oh, how well I remember--
the feeling of hitting the bottom.
21But there's one other thing I remember,
and remembering, I keep a grip on hope:
22GOD's loyal love couldn't have run out,
his merciful love couldn't have dried up.
23They're created new every morning.
How great your faithfulness!
24I'm sticking with GOD (I say it over and over).
He's all I've got left.
25GOD proves to be good to the man who passionately waits,
to the woman who diligently seeks.
26It's a good thing to quietly hope,
quietly hope for help from GOD.
27It's a good thing when you're young
to stick it out through the hard times.
28When life is heavy and hard to take,
go off by yourself. Enter the silence.
29Bow in prayer. Don't ask questions:
Wait for hope to appear.
30Don't run from trouble. Take it full-face.
The "worst" is never the worst.
31Why? Because the Master won't ever
walk out and fail to return.
32If he works severely, he also works tenderly.
His stockpiles of loyal love are immense.
33He takes no pleasure in making life hard,
in throwing roadblocks in the way..."
Jeremiah writes about Jerusalem's fall and distruction. He tells of the desolation, and the abominations that happened; death, invasions, cannibalism... And yet, in these verses, he still expresses his hope in God.
He witnessed terrible things that most of us can't even fathom. But he never lost his faith in God.
Think of all the things we go through that "challenge" our faith in God. Compare them to what Jeremiah had to deal with. Our problems seem pretty small now, don't they?
Yet why do we let our problems and our issues weaken our faith?
Hmm....
4/13/05
Hindsight is 20/20
If that's so, then I obviously dont have very good hindsight, since my normal sight isn't even close to 20/20!
Had a fun day today at the eye docs. He made my pupils get HUGE!! haha!
I was overdue for an exam, so AA and I went today. I wanted to ask if it was possible for me to get contacts, so I could just buy sunglasses at Wally World. Sadly, 'twas not to be. See, my eye's are in such a shape that I have to wear my glasses every waking hour, just to protect them! My left eye is so weak, that my right eye does all the work. So I need to protect my right eye. If something happens to it, I'm up a creek and not able to see where I'm going! hahah! So I picked out some new frames, they are greeeeen. I also picked out some cool sunglasses to fill with my prescription. Yippie!
Well, time for me to run away again...
Tootles!
Had a fun day today at the eye docs. He made my pupils get HUGE!! haha!
I was overdue for an exam, so AA and I went today. I wanted to ask if it was possible for me to get contacts, so I could just buy sunglasses at Wally World. Sadly, 'twas not to be. See, my eye's are in such a shape that I have to wear my glasses every waking hour, just to protect them! My left eye is so weak, that my right eye does all the work. So I need to protect my right eye. If something happens to it, I'm up a creek and not able to see where I'm going! hahah! So I picked out some new frames, they are greeeeen. I also picked out some cool sunglasses to fill with my prescription. Yippie!
Well, time for me to run away again...
Tootles!
4/12/05
Totally Awesome Songs!
Hey folks! I was listening to one of my totally awesome cds on the way home from work today, and three songs really hit me. Some of you know what I've been going through over the last few weeks. These songs kinda hit the proverbial nail on the head. I hope they hold as much for you as they did me!
On My Own ~ Barlow Girl
I can't believe that I"m here in this place again
How did I manage to mess up one more time?
This pattern seems to be the story of my life
Should have learned this lesson by the thousandth time
'Cause I promise myself I wouldn't fall
But here I've fallen
I guess I'm not as strong as I thought
All I can do is cry to You
Oh God You have to save me
You're my last and only hope
All my right answers fail me
I can't seem to make it on my own
I always thought that I would be strong enough
What made all of them fall couldn't take me down
Yeah, did I think that I was above it all
I have learned that pride comes before the fall
I can't promise that I won't fall
'Cause here I've fallen
I know I'm not as strong as I thought
All I can do is cry to You
On My Own ~ Barlow Girl
I can't believe that I"m here in this place again
How did I manage to mess up one more time?
This pattern seems to be the story of my life
Should have learned this lesson by the thousandth time
'Cause I promise myself I wouldn't fall
But here I've fallen
I guess I'm not as strong as I thought
All I can do is cry to You
Oh God You have to save me
You're my last and only hope
All my right answers fail me
I can't seem to make it on my own
I always thought that I would be strong enough
What made all of them fall couldn't take me down
Yeah, did I think that I was above it all
I have learned that pride comes before the fall
I can't promise that I won't fall
'Cause here I've fallen
I know I'm not as strong as I thought
All I can do is cry to You
You Led Me
You Led Me ~ Barlow Girl
Good morning
The night is over and gone
I thought once
This dark would last for so long
Feel the sunlight
On my face
You have brought me
Through this place
Jesus, Jesus You found me
Through the long night you led me
You set me free
Do you see
Just what you've done in my life?
You gave me
More then I hoped for; now I
feel your sunlight
On my face
You have brought me
Through this place
Jesus, Jesus You found me
Through the long night you led me
You set me free
Feel the sunlight
On my face
You have brought me
Through this place
Good morning
The night is over and gone
I thought once
This dark would last for so long
Feel the sunlight
On my face
You have brought me
Through this place
Jesus, Jesus You found me
Through the long night you led me
You set me free
Do you see
Just what you've done in my life?
You gave me
More then I hoped for; now I
feel your sunlight
On my face
You have brought me
Through this place
Jesus, Jesus You found me
Through the long night you led me
You set me free
Feel the sunlight
On my face
You have brought me
Through this place
Never Alone
Never Alone ~ Barlow Girl
I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no.
I needed you today
So where did you go?
You told me to call
Said you'd be there
And though I haven't seen you
Are you still there?
Chorus
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone
And though I cannot see you
And I can't explain why
Such a deep reassurance
You've placed in my life.
We cannot separate
'Cause you're part of me.
And though you're invisible
I'll trust the unseen.
Chorus
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone
I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no.
I needed you today
So where did you go?
You told me to call
Said you'd be there
And though I haven't seen you
Are you still there?
Chorus
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone
And though I cannot see you
And I can't explain why
Such a deep reassurance
You've placed in my life.
We cannot separate
'Cause you're part of me.
And though you're invisible
I'll trust the unseen.
Chorus
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone
I'm Back!!!
A bend in the road is not the end of the road... unless you fail to make the turn. ~Author Unknown
The Ashley has returned! * listens for applause *
Well, yeah. Anyways! I really need to find something to eat, I'm starving. Just wanted to let everyone know I was back!
Much love!
The Ashley has returned! * listens for applause *
Well, yeah. Anyways! I really need to find something to eat, I'm starving. Just wanted to let everyone know I was back!
Much love!
4/7/05
Well, Folks...
I think I need some time away from this. I have too much going on in my head right now. I'm angry with someone, and I dont want that to leak out on here. So I dont think I'll be posting for a while until I can either get some answers, or get over this. Who knows how long that will take.
I've been seriously hurt, and I'm finally angry about it. I feel like a fool. An idiot. Choose your word.
Anyways, that's all. Feel free to still email or IM. I'll be around.
I've been seriously hurt, and I'm finally angry about it. I feel like a fool. An idiot. Choose your word.
Anyways, that's all. Feel free to still email or IM. I'll be around.
4/6/05
I...want...to...scream. :-)
I never do this, but tonight, I need to vent. I am SO....SOMETHING right now. I dont know if I'm angry or hurt or frustrated or all three or something totally different. All I know is I have an elephant sitting on my chest, I'm shaking, I'm tense, and I can't sleep.
Can anyone tell me if it is a crime to be myself? Is it required for me to be something I'm not just to keep a friend? Should I be meek and compliant to avoid confrontation? Should I be what I'm expected to be and nothing more?
Argh!
Can anyone tell me if it is a crime to be myself? Is it required for me to be something I'm not just to keep a friend? Should I be meek and compliant to avoid confrontation? Should I be what I'm expected to be and nothing more?
Argh!
4/5/05
I think I'm ok now...
Ok, I think my extremely girly side has gone back into hiding for now. The world is safe again!!
Today is already looking to be a gorgeous day. The sun is shining, there's very little snow left on the ground, the rain clouds have blown off... Part of me really doesnt want to go to work because it's so nice out! I dont want to be stuck indoors!
Ok, once again, I must be going. Have another PT appointment at 10. Speaking of which, does anyone have a stationary (is that the right spelling?) bicycle? It's been prescribed by my pt... blech.
Gotta go rustle up some grub. Tootles!
Today is already looking to be a gorgeous day. The sun is shining, there's very little snow left on the ground, the rain clouds have blown off... Part of me really doesnt want to go to work because it's so nice out! I dont want to be stuck indoors!
Ok, once again, I must be going. Have another PT appointment at 10. Speaking of which, does anyone have a stationary (is that the right spelling?) bicycle? It's been prescribed by my pt... blech.
Gotta go rustle up some grub. Tootles!
4/4/05
I'm in love!
Ok, I went shopping tonight by myself. Something I dont do very often. I went into the Gap, another thing I dont do very often. And I looked at their purfumes, something I just dont do.
I found one. I love it. Its called "Delicate Sagemoss" and it smells SOOOO GOOOD. I put a little on my wrist, and have been smelling it all night... (Which is really weird, it's a totally girly thing to do, and I'm usually not like this)
My next $20 is buying it... I am that hooked. It was the only one there that I liked, the others were either nasty, or smelled like old ladies.
I can't believe it... I think I'm turning into a girly girl.... Nah, it can't be. I still dont like skirts, or shorts, HATE pink... I think I'm safe for now. Maybe I'm just turning into a *gasp* woman...!!!
Anyways, I should head to bed now, sniffing my wrist. hahaha I am so DUMB sometimes!
Good night!
I found one. I love it. Its called "Delicate Sagemoss" and it smells SOOOO GOOOD. I put a little on my wrist, and have been smelling it all night... (Which is really weird, it's a totally girly thing to do, and I'm usually not like this)
My next $20 is buying it... I am that hooked. It was the only one there that I liked, the others were either nasty, or smelled like old ladies.
I can't believe it... I think I'm turning into a girly girl.... Nah, it can't be. I still dont like skirts, or shorts, HATE pink... I think I'm safe for now. Maybe I'm just turning into a *gasp* woman...!!!
Anyways, I should head to bed now, sniffing my wrist. hahaha I am so DUMB sometimes!
Good night!
Malachi 3:3
I got this in my email today, and thought it was so awesome! I had to share it with you!
Malachi 3:3 says: "He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver."
Malachi 3:3 says: "He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver."
This verse puzzled some women in a Bible study and they wondered what this statement meant about the character and nature of God.
One of the women offered to find out the process of refining silver and get back to the group at the next Bible Study.
That week, the woman called a silversmith and made an appointment to watch him at work. She didn't mention anything about the reason for her interest beyond her curiosity about the process of refining silver.
As she watched the silversmith, he held a piece of silver over the fire and let it heat up. He explained that in refining silver, one needed to hold the silver in the middle of the fire where the flames were hottest as to burn away all the impurities.
The woman thought about God holding us in such a hot spot then she thought again about the verse that says: "He sits as a refiner and purifier of silver."
She asked the silversmith if it was true that he had to sit there in front of the fire the whole time the silver was being refined. The man answered that yes, he not only had to sit there holding the silver, but he had to keep his eyes on the silver the entire time it was in the fire.
If the silver was left a moment too long in the flames, it would be destroyed.
The woman was silent for a moment. Then she asked the silversmith, "How do you know when the silver is fully refined?" He smiled at her and answered, "Oh, that's easy -- when I see my image in it."
If today you are feeling the heat of the fire, remember that God has His eye on you and will keep watching you until He sees His image in you.
Brrr...
It's cold outside. I just got back from making a trip to the dump. I had looked at the thermometer before we left, and it said 50*! Wahoo, I thought. 50 is warm!
Not so.
This is the coldest 50 degrees I've felt in a long time. My hands are still cold and stiff! It's hard to type! I've got goosebumps all over! I have hot chocolate in the making though, so that should help. I've only got an hour though before I have to leave again to take Aaron to the church. I'm cold just thinking about it... no, wait, I'm just STILL cold! Ha!
Gotta go, I hear my water boiling in the kitchen. bye!
Not so.
This is the coldest 50 degrees I've felt in a long time. My hands are still cold and stiff! It's hard to type! I've got goosebumps all over! I have hot chocolate in the making though, so that should help. I've only got an hour though before I have to leave again to take Aaron to the church. I'm cold just thinking about it... no, wait, I'm just STILL cold! Ha!
Gotta go, I hear my water boiling in the kitchen. bye!
April Showers
Bring May Flowers!
And I certainly hope so! The last few days have been very wet. I'm ready for summer!!
I can't stay long, need to do some work on my room again... something exploded... I think it was my dresser, but I'm not sure. And I have a big fat hairy spider in here somewhere, I saw it scurry across the floor this morning. I really dont care about spiders, couldnt care less, I just dont like the idea of waking up to it crawling across my face. So I have to find it and exterminate it.
Among other things.
Time to go! My tumbly is rumbly, first things first!!
And I certainly hope so! The last few days have been very wet. I'm ready for summer!!
I can't stay long, need to do some work on my room again... something exploded... I think it was my dresser, but I'm not sure. And I have a big fat hairy spider in here somewhere, I saw it scurry across the floor this morning. I really dont care about spiders, couldnt care less, I just dont like the idea of waking up to it crawling across my face. So I have to find it and exterminate it.
Among other things.
Time to go! My tumbly is rumbly, first things first!!
Just Gray?
Gray is a sleepy color, dont you think? it's the color of dreams. Not really black and white, but not brilliantly colored either. Kind of the color of indecision too. It can't decide if it wants to be black or white.
But add just a hint of color, and it changes the whole mood of things. Slowly the words start to come alive, they arent to depressing anymore. Gradually, the color pushes up from inside, and before you know it, a brighter shade appears.
And with the brighter shade come whole new ideas. Suddenly, visions of irises come to mind, with their pretty blue-purple petals. It also brings to mind the color of the sky right before a huge thunder storm lets loose, when the clouds are churning and rolling.
And then the rain falls. And with it, an entirely different color appears. The sky, the trees, the roads, the grass, they all seem to shine blue-green. And if the storm happens to take place on a beachside, the raindrops fall into the ocean, and the colors blend into a wonderful turquoise capped in white.
After a little while, the clouds blow away to torrent on another piece of land, and the sky turns blue again. Dotted with white gulls and black crows, the bright blue sky fills any line of sight. All the colors that before were muted and drab are now vivid and vibrant, not wanting to be ignored.
The grass and the leaves sparkle with wetness, enhancing their natural colors. The flowers show up brilliantly against their rich greenery. The white washed houses and fences glow pale green as they reflect the sunlight through the branches.
Roses are in bloom. Lilacs and lillies too.
And above it all, the sun smiles down, capturing it all in a picture that human eyes will never see. For it's only from that great distance that one can see the true beauty that surrounds us.
And it all began with gray.
But add just a hint of color, and it changes the whole mood of things. Slowly the words start to come alive, they arent to depressing anymore. Gradually, the color pushes up from inside, and before you know it, a brighter shade appears.
And with the brighter shade come whole new ideas. Suddenly, visions of irises come to mind, with their pretty blue-purple petals. It also brings to mind the color of the sky right before a huge thunder storm lets loose, when the clouds are churning and rolling.
And then the rain falls. And with it, an entirely different color appears. The sky, the trees, the roads, the grass, they all seem to shine blue-green. And if the storm happens to take place on a beachside, the raindrops fall into the ocean, and the colors blend into a wonderful turquoise capped in white.
After a little while, the clouds blow away to torrent on another piece of land, and the sky turns blue again. Dotted with white gulls and black crows, the bright blue sky fills any line of sight. All the colors that before were muted and drab are now vivid and vibrant, not wanting to be ignored.
The grass and the leaves sparkle with wetness, enhancing their natural colors. The flowers show up brilliantly against their rich greenery. The white washed houses and fences glow pale green as they reflect the sunlight through the branches.
Roses are in bloom. Lilacs and lillies too.
And above it all, the sun smiles down, capturing it all in a picture that human eyes will never see. For it's only from that great distance that one can see the true beauty that surrounds us.
And it all began with gray.
4/3/05
One Hour
One hour ahead. Yesterday it was 4:21, today its 5:21. Hmmm...
I wonder, with these computers that change the time automatically, what would happen if I stayed up all night, watching the clock to see the time change? Would it really change? Or is it like the boiling pot, that doesnt do anything so long as it's watched? Hmmm... And if it does change, it probably just skips an hour. Like, it will go from 1:59am to 3am. And what about in the fall when it changes again? When it goes back an hour? Will it go from 1:59am to 1am again? I wonder...
Well, my brain hurts now from thinking. I'm gonna head out. Gotta take Amber home soon anyways...if I can convince her and Aaron that she really does need to go home... lol :-)
I need to find socks too.
And a jacket.
And keys would be nice...
I wonder, with these computers that change the time automatically, what would happen if I stayed up all night, watching the clock to see the time change? Would it really change? Or is it like the boiling pot, that doesnt do anything so long as it's watched? Hmmm... And if it does change, it probably just skips an hour. Like, it will go from 1:59am to 3am. And what about in the fall when it changes again? When it goes back an hour? Will it go from 1:59am to 1am again? I wonder...
Well, my brain hurts now from thinking. I'm gonna head out. Gotta take Amber home soon anyways...if I can convince her and Aaron that she really does need to go home... lol :-)
I need to find socks too.
And a jacket.
And keys would be nice...
4/1/05
It's Friday!!!
I have some time to kill until I have to go pick up Amber, so I thought I'd write some here. I am incredibly bored. I'm writing here so I wont pace around the house. lol I've already folded a load of laundry, started a new load, put some stuff away, vacuumed my room (how DO you spell that word anyways?), and now there's nothing else to do! Well, I suppose I could put away clean dishes..... nah.
Fishie comes today!! Yay! I do have to drive all the way to her house. But thats ok. I'll enjoy the time to myself on the way up, and we'll have some quality girl time on the way back. So it's all good. And on the way back we have to stop and take Wal*Mart by storm. muahaha!! Ok, so maybe not "by storm" but we do need to make a stop.
Man, I'm having a wicked nap attack... gonna stop in Warner on the way up and get a coffee. I'm so sad, I know where every Dunkin Donuts is within about a 20 mile radius. Well.... most of them. There are two on the way to where I'm doing all my GED stuff! And lets see, theres on in Shaws, there's one in the Shell station on Concord, there's one or two in Epsom, there's one in Warner... (I'm sure I'm missing some) See, I have to stop there for gas anyways, so while I'm there... might as well indulge!
Tomorrow night, all the kids and I are going to see my best friend Adah in her school play, The Sound Of Music! It's gonna be fun. I'll smuggle my camera in and try to get some pictures for you. Ah, the wonders of digital cameras! No flash, please!
Wel, I suppose I should get going. Still have 20 minutes before I have to leave. UGH I'm so bored!
Hugs!
Fishie comes today!! Yay! I do have to drive all the way to her house. But thats ok. I'll enjoy the time to myself on the way up, and we'll have some quality girl time on the way back. So it's all good. And on the way back we have to stop and take Wal*Mart by storm. muahaha!! Ok, so maybe not "by storm" but we do need to make a stop.
Man, I'm having a wicked nap attack... gonna stop in Warner on the way up and get a coffee. I'm so sad, I know where every Dunkin Donuts is within about a 20 mile radius. Well.... most of them. There are two on the way to where I'm doing all my GED stuff! And lets see, theres on in Shaws, there's one in the Shell station on Concord, there's one or two in Epsom, there's one in Warner... (I'm sure I'm missing some) See, I have to stop there for gas anyways, so while I'm there... might as well indulge!
Tomorrow night, all the kids and I are going to see my best friend Adah in her school play, The Sound Of Music! It's gonna be fun. I'll smuggle my camera in and try to get some pictures for you. Ah, the wonders of digital cameras! No flash, please!
Wel, I suppose I should get going. Still have 20 minutes before I have to leave. UGH I'm so bored!
Hugs!
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